Today is the DAY GRay’s made my life hell. What I want to tell ABC amp; DISNEY
pI think I may upset someone with this, but if I don’t speak up and tell the truth than well we live in a world where many things are not as they were. For those of you who don’t know me, I am an actress who has a theater degree (graduated with honors, PHI BETA KAPPA) and a MASTERS in PERFORMING ARTS MANAGEMENT. I also have a law degree (Cali Bar Number 207690- I am retired and WILL NEVER PRACTICE though I will play one in front of the camera if desired). I can sing. I write and sometimes perform poetry and songs I write, though I did not write music. I play the piano a bit. I have a certificate from AADA and also have studied with Cyb Barnstable (in class with Kellan Luntz) and also Actors Collective for 6 months, and classes at SMC including Dialects with Kathleen Dunn. I am also almost done a CERTIFICATE in DIGITAL Media at SMC. /p p I also worked on 200 productions from 2003 to 2008 starting with the Practice. I was a regular on shows like Deadwood, Carnivale, Vegas, Eli Stone, Gray’s Anatomy, Bones, Close to Home, and often worked on shows like NCIS, CSI NY, Without a Trace, the UNIT, Numbers, and on and on. I worked many films as well and at least one or two commercials a month. I was an extra, though sometimes featured actress, and also a stand in. /p pToday is a really hard day for me. You see on August 25, 2008 I had been working to get my life together after having an accident on a set in January of that year, so bad I could not bend my legs. It was a Sessions pay role company set. I was also being harassed by a guy who had assaulted me. I also was getting sick from gluten intolerance. I was told that day to run or I would be fired and I did and I ended up in the hospital. Today in 2008 I was told to come to work to Gray’s. They had switched from Sessions to Universal pay right at the beginning of the year and after my accident. A man met me with the usual security to tell me I was on a list by Disney and would never be allowed to work there again. I did nothing wrong. I had heard the two leads Patrice Dempsey and Eric Dane make comments that I was not a lawyer and that I was not an actor (I had just finished taping my first non-union fill called SKYLA P.M. where I play gay but I am not). /p pWell on 09/01/05 I lost my breasts to cancer and I was also in the PSA to stand up to cancer in 2008 and the people at GRAY”S knew. They knew. And for this reason I will never work for ABC or DISNEY unless they pay me enough to make up for taking years of my life. For violating my right to association and taking away what got me through the worst thing any woman can go through. I was HAPPY. I did not need huge pay checks or even notoriety. I just loved being on sets. I LOVE ACTING so much it drives me insane and I get depressed if I can’t perform or can’t audition or get on sets to do it. I need it./p pI am not here to be given the FALSE hope I will have a future acting when your company hires psychopaths like Dempsey and Dane who have me treated this way. You see I called the production last year when MY UNION took my rights away after I tried to file charges against these two play boy bozos and two weeks later they announced DANE was done. I also was filing charges against the man who assaulted me JEREMY GILBTREATHE and also Gray’s STAND IN CYNTHIA YOUNGBLOOD and ALSO JOHNNY PONZIO her ex boy friend. Johnny and I were once interested in each other until I found out about CYNTHIA but I never slept with that boy though we worked together many times post Carnivale. Cynthia was buddies with DEMPSEY and DANE and kept trying to get me into trouble and I just wanted to WORK. I was not dating anyone. I was not interested in anyone. And I am not a COUGAR, and I will not mix work with dating period. Apparently GRAYS is now featuring Youngblood this month. Again next week I should be celebrating WHY I CHOSE TO SURVIVE./p pSomeone talk to SANDRA OH or her stand in if she is still there. I ran into the stand in at a party for the cousin of an actress from the Practice. She was happy to see me until I told her how upset I was and then said it was political and did not want to get involved. Keep in mind she was happy to see me. I had been liked. I loved my work. I was planning on networking into art direction jobs or set photo work and then I get CUT OFF FROM ALL I KNEW. SORRY but I am not looking for survival jobs. I have bad knees and I’ve had cancer twice. I can’t work with food because of allergies and can’t stand for hours so retail was out. I am also not the type to SELL things. I have three degrees and after 5 years get treated like I can’t be on a set ever again while a guy who tried to hurt me gets to still work compliments of his friends. And my UNION treats me like I am the criminal. I should add I can’t ride a BIKE. /p pJEFF OLAN told me that my father did this by the way a year later in an email. My dad who I can’t stand who used to laugh if I hurt myself, leaving me in complete FEAR and TERROR, yet he also stressed that the production told him to get rid of me. I DID NOTHING WRONG. I don’t know what the industry thought I would do, but practicing law or working in an office when the very thought of that makes me not want to get up in the morning, is not GOING TO HAPPEN. I had a vision of my life when I had cancer. Working set jobs, show here or movie there, and then doing guest spots or a play here and there or even maybe voice over but I need the acting in front of the camera fix. I LOVE IT. I made the choice to give up my breasts, even going through 4 different doctors so I would get one who would fix me so I could still work period. I have the same doctor as JOLIE- I DO. KRISTI FUNK saved my life, but I was bleeding from my breast and HAD NO CHOICE. SO thank you DISNEY AND ABC, but I WON’T work for YOU unless you pay be for the EVIL your company did to me. I also DO NOT LIKE MEN NOT INTO ACTING so I will not be dating anyone at the TABLE. PERIOD. My soul mate is an artist and actor and loves things I DO not some guy with a pay check and such a heavy sense of responsibility he does not see the flowers or hear the beauty of a child’s laugh. And I hate American football and well most American Men don’t fit. SORRY./p pUNLESS I CAN BE WITH MY SAG AFTRA UNION members I really HAVE NO RESPECT FOR CREW. You see I am miserable. I don’t have friends to hang with because I can’t be around actors. I run into people who knew me on sets and they tell me I should sue. This is ridiculous to them. Even a few UNION people I knew have told me the same thing. And JASON GERORE of the SAG BOARD was of the CAST of GRAY”s. SO guess what. I don’t have a future if I can’t be on sets and I will not love this country or the people in it if I am not free to fight to ACT and be cast as an ACTRESS and to work on sets. I AM TERRIFIED because of what happened, and it is justified./p pIf I COULD I WOULD MAKE DISNEY AND ABC make DEMSPEY and DANE pay me back for the years they have taken and the FUTURE I wanted. And I also wanted a family as long as my parents were out of my life, but for that to happen I had to be around actors and the industry, not cops, government, lawyers and politicians. I HATE THAT WORLD. I want peace. And I am not going to be pushed or manipulated. I WOULD be working on sets in CREW and acting if this WRONG and CRIME had NOT BEEN COMMITTED AGAINST ME. /p IF I CAN’T BE AROUND ACTORS IN THE ACTORS UNION THEN I DON’T WANT TO BE AROUND ANYONE IN THIS COUNTRY. I LOVE ACTING. I WANT TO FIGHT TO BE A PROFESSIONAL IN ACTING AND I HAVE NO OTHER DREAMS, ANYTHING ELSE WAS TO SUPPORT THAT AND CUTTING ME OFF FROM THAT IS KILLING MY SPIRIT, MY SOUL AND MAKING ME NOT WANT TO GO ANYWHERE UNLESS I KNOW IT INVOLVES ME ACTING OR BEING AROUND ACTORS. THIS IS WRONG AND HOW DARE THE LEGAL COMMUNITY LIE TO ME AND TELL ME I DO’NT HAVE A CASE OR WELL TELL ME I DO BUT I HAVE TO PAY THEM $200 I DON’T HAVE BECAUSE THERE ARE NO JOBS I WANT IF I CANT CONTINUE TO FIGHT TO BE ON SETS WHERE I WAS FOR 5 YEARS. YOU CUT ME OFF FROM FRIENDS AND I DON’T WANT PEOPLE MY DAD CAN CALL AND MANIPULATE TO TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL OR GIVE ME A RIDE AND I WILL NEVER TRUST ANYONE FROM DISNEY OR ABC IF I CANT SUE THEM AND I WILL NOT WANT KIDS OR HAVE A FUTURE IF MY CHILDREN WILL WANT TO SEE DISNEY MOVIES BECUASE I WOULD TURN INTO THE KIND OF ABUSER MY FATHER IS. AND THAT IS WHAT I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING TO AVOID NOR WILL I EVER REALLY LOVE A MAN IF HE DOES NOT GET OR IS NOT INTO ACTING. SORRY BUT I REALLY CANT STAND MEN IN TO POLITICS, LAW, GOVERNMENT AND NOT INTO ART AND BEING GREATIVE AND EMOTIONALLY AVAILABLE. THANKS FOR MAKING SURE I WILL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS WHO REALLY WANT TO BE AROUND ME OR REALLY LOVE ME. I HATE YOU ABC. I HATE YOU PARENTS. YOU HAVE NOT LOVED ME, NOT BY TRYING TO MAKE ME BE CONSERVATIVE, WORK WITH REPUBLICANS AND LIVE JUST TO MAKE MONEY AND GIVING ME A JOB WITH SECURITY, YOU WOULD HAVE TO LET ME MAKE MOVIES AND FILMS ON MY NIGHTS AND WEEKENDS AND THE PEOPLE I WORK WITH I WOULD NOT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH, I AM AN INTROVERT AND I NEED TO BE ALLOWED TO HAVE A BEST FRIEND AND THAT IS SOMETHING I CANT HAVE IF MY PARENTS AND REPUBLICANS WONT LET ME BE IN SAG AFTAR LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. YOU HAVE RAPED ME WORSE THAN JEREMY GILBREATHE TRIED TO DO, HOW DARE YOU. NED VAUGHN YOU ARE A JOKE.