I was raised right! My teachers taught me well.
Recently I have been attacked on my twitter and what amazes me is that this person seems insane and is implying I am crazy. At one point they say this is not personal; it is business and it was the way you were raised. I was raised to think bullying was wrong. I was raised to think you don’t go online create a false account and attack someone. I was raised to think that the best way to deal with conflict is face to face. I was raised to believe that honesty and doing the right thing was the means to being a better person. Now that does not mean everyone meets everyone’s standard of right and wrong. It means what is right under the law. i WAS RAISED TO BELIEVE WE HAD A CONSTITUTION AND A BILL OF RIGHTS.
Who is right? me for wanting to live my life on my terms. For choosing my own beliefs. For being allowed to vote for the political party I chose. Don’t I have the right to live my life on my terms if I am legally an adult in the US after the age of 18. News for foreigners visiting the US, my father has no right to tell me who to marry or keep me from seeing who I chose to see. I won’t plan a future where my parents and I spend holidays together. I don’t want to go see relatives anymore. The most important family I had died a long time ago. I miss my Brother, but for all I know my parents have brain washed him to being a Republican. Last time I talked to my brother, and I mean really talked, he was an Independent and was reading the works of the Dalai Lama. If my parents leave everything to him, as I believe they should, he will not be leaving a thing to the RNC. Sorry SAG AFTRA but you picked on a girl whose brother is kinder and nicer than I am, or used to be. He is less likely to get angry as well and probably Ned Vaughn’s precious RNC won’t be receiving anything from my parents after they are gone.
I was CATHOLIC when I was on set. Granted I had worked with Clinton’s committee on Religious Freedom. I did not work on Sleeper Cell for an actor. I read the premise of the show and thought I had knowledge of use. I knew about the middle east. I knew the religious aspects of the conflict and had studied the history and culture of Islam in college. I was surprised to run into Blake Shields, I was happy to see him. He did not cross any lines with me. I did not date him, though Jeff Olan either thought I thought I did, or he thought we did.
To me doing the right thing is asking the right questions sometimes, not assuming anything. I just wanted to make a living in FILM AND TV and have part of that be me getting cast in professional acting roles while I also worked in some capacity on sets. If people are jealous or think I was being irresponsible. I have no goal to have the house, car and kids. I need to my debts, but any extra money I made would be spent to further my acting, not plan a future with a husband and a family. I might have wanted that if I had been allowed to meet the right men, but those men would not be traditional. They would be artistic, creative, giving, environments, poetic, and get ACTING. I refuse now to be involved with ANYONE. I want to be at AFI taking classes and at CAP doing workshops or I don’t want to make money or fight to survive.
Does anyone get I paid $2000 for a UNION card I am not being allowed to get the FULL benefits of? Other people have their card by simply paying for AFTRA and then waiting a year to join SAG. I worked on sets for my SAG card. I have two SAG shorts under my bent, one which was on Direct TV this summer. I did theater in college and at AMERICAN University. THERE ARE UNION MEMBERS OF SAG AFTRA probably working background right now, who have done less to achieve their status but they get to work UNION and be at the events and study acting, and many of them may be my age or OLDER. Some of them may even be lawyers, probably MALE.
No one should have had the right to strip me of my rights forever. NO ONE. It costs 200 a month in some places to take classes out here in CALIFORNIA but my $2000 for my UNION card is supposed to give me classes at AFI worth about 200 but only costing me $35 and if back in DC I should be allowed to go for FREE. BUT NOPE! I am to be forced to work at jobs I hate. Forced to join the 9 to 5 simply because that is what is demanded of me from people back in MD and DC a place I will NEVER GO TO AGAIN. I chose to live for a future on sets, not a future at a theater house. I HATE THE IDEA OF HAVING TO GO TO A THEATER EVERY DAY TO WORK AND DO A SHOW FOR WEEK AFTER WEEK. I need to make at least $40000 a year plus. I can’t do that in THEATER. I could have done that in FIlm and TV where editors can make up to 10,0000 a week and set photographers make $50 an hour.
I am not an ACADEMIC. I worked and lived in DC for ten years without my parents and worked as a news media producer for a year. I am now though so upset by what has transpired I dont trust or want anything to do with people unless I can be with MY UNION AGAIN. I will not friend people just to make money off of them. I can’t.
If there is A god- i PROMISED HIM WHEN i BEAT CANCER I WOULD FIGHT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE ON SETS. i WOULD FIGHT TO NEVER BE FORCED TO BE IN AN OFFICE AGAIN WITH LAWYERS. AND I WOULD UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES CHOSE TO LIVE IF I HAD TO GIVE UP MY INTEGRITY OR BELIEFS OR GIVE UP ACTING. TO ME THEATER IS NOT MY KIND OF ACTING.