Blake Shields had me listed as a friend on his GOod reads and on Facebook at one point. I keep hearing I did not know someone. It felt like I was supposed to be made gay, but I have never liked women really. And that I feel as if I am not good enough for the YOGI crowd. I am also not good enough for the acting crowd. I have been labelled evil by the health community and rejected as an actor permanently as such I have nothing to work for or look up to or care about.

He also had RISA as a friend who for some reason a few years ago started following me on my twitter.

And Stephanie Nash. I was looking for a place to meditate and found one with her in Santa Monica but then David H Lawrence joined it and I kind of had a gut instinct and asked her if she knew Blake Shields and if Blake meditated there. She told me, “BLake did not,” which made me realize my gut instinct was right, she knew him.

Somewhere in all this mess people in Blake’s life assume I am a horrible person. That I was new to Venice Beach and that my life had to stop and I had to leave for him to have peace and love. While I am left with no peace, no hope, terrified, and knowing I will never be attractive to the world as an actress and therefore I have no future, while blake is male and can pursue acting for the rest of his life. My best years were taken by horrible people here who were plastic and shallow and yet presented themselves as pretty people who wanted to help the planet. Real looking people like me are just supposed to dream about acting. I CAN NOT BE FRIENDS WITH GOOD PEOPLE and actors are a special group of citizens in the US and even though I was once in the SAG AWARDS commitee group, I am not allowed in the same air space as the GREAT BLAKE SHIELDS.

Some other account calling themselves BLAKE SHIELDS friended me on Facebook, but they had one friend and no picture. These were my emails to the account because they freaked me out.

I tried to get CHRIS LILLY TO CAST BLAKE SHIELDS.

I also kept having people on my linked in like this guy who is a friend of John Voight. I am a DEMOCRAT. At the same time maybe I should just let everything go and die. People tell me to live my life. If I had a choice I would be acting. I would be with someone who was liberal and concerned about making the world better and not obsessed with business and money. Good looking men are not good looking if they are greedy and wasteful of the planet to me.