October to Deceber 2007- Allot I think of pettiness begins
10/01/07 Neighbor Without a Trace 10.8 hours
10/02/07 Grey’s Anatomy 13.4 hours
10/04/07 Eli Stone 8 hours
10/05/07 Eli Stone 8 hours
10/08/07 UNIT wife The Unit 8 hours I remember Ms M was there to that day. I just realized they made me a Unit Wife. Kind of cool. Unit liked me or they seemed too. Actors were all friendly too. One of the reasons I went to AADA was because of Dennis Haysbert. Once on set one he was joking with one of the actors and I don’t remember why, but I was the only extra on the set at the time and I blushed. It was guy joke. Haysbert looked at me and said “I am sorry I did not know a lady was present.” His co-star told him not to talk to the extras. Haysbert looked at me again and said “I’m sorry. I did not know a lady was present.” He even as an actor was real and down to earth. I respect that.
10/09/07 Eli Stone 12 hours
10/10/07 Greys Anatomy 9.4 or 11 hours
I almost quit Greys Anatomy this day. One of the stand ins and I had a rivalry of sorts over a guy from Carnivale who was a stand in. He and I could still work together and be fine. But she saw me go to crafty and thought I was not supposed to go and told a PA who later even asked me in front of her if I had gotten food. The ADs had asked me to work until lunch so I missed the food that was put out for crew so they let me go after lunch so I could get something since I did my job so well. Then the production forgot to tell us we were recalled. I ended up hearing something on set though and then calling casting and I and one other person were the only ones to show up the next day. I heard Patrick Dempsey say “She said she was going to quit yesterday and now she is the only one who showed.” I am professional and responsible. Even when upset at a production I dont want to mess up tape or continuity or the productions money. Plus I realized why was I letting a petty person who was mean and a bully get to me. This was the huge bus accident with the students I think. Big emergency scene.
10/11/07 Greys Anatomy 12.5 hours (I am in the picture behind the blinds. Read head sitting at the desk.)
10/12/07 This project had a code word but I remember what it was because I will never forget. I was fit UNION to be a Vulcan on star trek. Yep. Arnie Starr this background guy who told me he knew the writer or well he knew people involved told me it was in the script- what I was to do. I later talked about it but only after an actor put on IMDB that they were cast in this part- to be a midwife for Spock. Seriously. When I went to the fitting at Paramount though the coordinator for background walked me into the wardrobe head and asked him if I was the person they wanted for it and he said YES, but I am allergic to latex and i was too excited about it. You see top of my list when I had cancer of things I wanted to do- be an alien on Star Trek and die. I don’t know why I added the death scene, maybe because I had cancer at the time I thought about what i would want to do if I could do anything. Plus it was kind of like being given a key to the toy store as a kid and you can have any toys you want. I still have the fitting sheet in a box. I promise I did not talk about this though until one of the actors even talked about it in an interview. Once I saw stuff on line I could tell people how upset I was I could not do it. Plus I was not there. I got upset with other background though because well, Arnie starr pops up on allot of the shows I have trouble with over the next few months. he had an issue with me being into photoshop because he was a cartoonist or illustrator. why Can’t men just accept that women can do what they can do to? He had issues even getting fit for Star Trek, or he told me eventually he did get to work it, but that bothered me because how did he know what i was doing on it when all I had was a fitting that was never finished because of my stupid allergy.
10/15/07 Lawyer Type Notes from the Underbelly 11 hours
10/16/07 Press Women’s Murder Club 10 hours
10/17/07 Court BG/ WPK worker. Eli Stone 13.2 hours
10/18/07 G-force. 2 hour fitting. I did not realize this at the time, but I almost worked with Clooney again. He did voice over on this. I worked with a really cool film producer woman who always was cool with me. She was Union on this and I remember we talked about Clooney. She was cool that I thought he was awesome too. She even tried to convince me he might be interested in a girl like me and I remember laughing her off. I got really sick on this too. Night shoots in a gown. I kept getting flu medicine from the Medic to take home so i could take a dose before I sent to bed in the morning to wake up and go to work at night. They fed us well though. Jerry Bruckeimer was on set for part of it too.
10/18/07 Concert Goer Eli Stone 12.1 hours This was probably the big Georege Michael concert and after the concert they picked some of us to stay and I got to see the horse. I so loved that. It was awesome. And as I recall this was a day casting called me to be there. I remember because Joy told me they wanted me at the concert.
10/19/07 WPK/ Concert Goern Eli Stone 13.5 hours This one may be the one with the horse. There were two. One down town and one they had on the studio lot. I wore my pink dress for one and this brown chords outfit for the other. But I did not want to be on the state with George Michael and was not told to be there. I had a reason. My friend was chosen to be seen drooling over GM in a scene eralier and I kind of walked by and ignored him. I did not know what they saw on camera or what they would keep and I figured it did not make sense. they did not get too mad at me for this though. I do love GM.
10/22/07 Restaruant Patron/ WPK Eli Stone 10.2 hours This was the time that Ms M told everyone she told me she thought JLM was cute. No.
10/23/07 NY street CSI NY 10.9 hours
10/24/07 Faculty Member October Road 8 hours
10/25/07 Wedding Guest Big Shots 10.5 hours
10/26/07 Wpk Eli Stone 10.8 hours
10/29/07 WPK Eli Stone 9 hours
10/31/07 Upscale On Lookers Criminal Minds 8 hours (I think it may have been Without a Trace and not this but not sure) Somewhere in here I met a woman who told me her fiance was an executive for ABC and that she saw the pilot of Eli Stone And hated it. I remember I was on this show when I met her. She approached me. I had run into her friend on a different period piece set at some point. It was weird. She later showed up on the set of Eli Stone trying to be a lawyer. She told me she was a nurse- radiology I think. It was strange though because she also had conversations about how bad off she was financially right now?? This is her:
She told me she thought she would try acting because it looked easy. I later worked with her on a project and heard her say they made her a staffer. She later showed up on the set of the PSA for cancer at Dodger stadium and I heard the AD tell her I would be gone when Eli Stone came back second season. this girl was a nurse and playing games with a cancer victim so she would get what: a feature bit in background. I have actually had images in my head of this person kissing her executive fiance and telling him I want you to get rid of this red head who is a background artist so i can be one on Eli stone. I told her it was not going to go to Internet, which is what she told me and that it was good. She was handing out with a British guy who I heard tell her that I was a regular on Eli Stone and probably not going anywhere. That was my last week on the set of Eli Stone (December).
I know a background artist I will call MS D listened in to her conversations. I know people on Eli Stone started talking about me walking and that later when I worked on a pilot with this same woman a prop person from Grey’s took her hand and admired her engagement ring. I know when I had a limp she made a comment about how i was doing that just for her, when a guy who was a stand in on Eli used to comment to me about how I would limp when the weather changed, and I was not aware I still did. I have wanted to know who this woman is ever since. After this Ms M also started acting like the cat that swallowed the canary and would give me looks like i was some kind of criminal and she had won a prize.
I actually ended up tracking down the guy who caused my accident in 1997 and talking to him because my father told me the only blond at the trial had been my lawyer’s assistant. I contacted my lawyer too. I mean I went through years of taping my knee and years of pain and I was up to the point i was active again. It took years and what I get rewarded for that with a father telling me I was committing fraud because I was not being a lawyer. The guy that hit my car in 1997 was a physical therapist. He knew I would have years of issues and even wanted to settle early but his lawyer refused to let him. They even had a problem finding a doctor who would say i did not have a knee problem and it delayed the trial. The guy that caused the accident was honest and cool. His lawyer was a bitch and apparently a lawyer for the insurance company. the judge reamed her out for even being there. My parents came to town for the trial and acted like i was going to move to AZ with them. that was the first time in my life they ever met a man in my life, more by necessity on my part than choice.
11/01/07 G Force 13.7 hours
11/02/07 G Force 13 hours They actually asked me at one point if I wanted a voucher on this, which I wish I had taken- payment plan to SAG baby.
11/03/07 You Don’t Mess With Zohan? 8 hours
11/05/07 G Force 12 hours
11/06/07 Female Congregation/Olivia Choate Changeling 8 hours Ran into crew from Cloverfield here and they said to me “Cloverfield.” I guess at this point it was OK to talk about it but I kind of still avoided the discussion.
11/07/07 G Force 12 hours
11/08/07 G Force 12 hours
11/09/07 G Force 13.5 hours
11/12/07 Protestor Changeling 10 hours Ran into a guy I almost went out with on Carnivale, Johnny, on this one. He was standing in I think. I did many period pieces. Angelina Jolie ran into me on the set during a scene and I stayed in character. I was good.
11/13/07 Observer-female recalled Changeling 11.3 hours
11/14/07 Observer-female recalled Changeling 11 hours
11/15/07 WPK Eli Stone 8.6 hours
11/16/07 Pedestrian Changeling 9.5 hours
11/18/07 Just for Laughs 9.5 hours
11/19/07 WPK Eli Stone 8 hours
11/20/07 Studio Atmos The Captain 8 hours
11/21/07 WPK Eli Stone 13 hours
Thanks giving I was supposed to go to San Diego with a girl from Eli Stone but I decided I needed to get work done for school. I wanted to research building my own site and I was overwhelmed and not feeling well. It was weird. Miller said something about travelling. I was not really paying attention. I was getting tired of MS M and stuff. there was also a girl ms J who was obsessed with him and kept asking me where he was. She was union and her sister was some big VP with blue cross and she used to work with CBS. Later Jason George said to Miller that he thought he had other plans but he said he was just being cautions. I remember Melinda was leaving the show. Miller gave her a hug. I even wished him a happy trip. I wanted to get my life together. I was not planning on doing the second season of the show if I could not find something else or well I wanted to work production some how and I was scared my cancer was back. Something was wrong and I knew it.
Miller came in and looked right at me and I avoided my eyes too. I remember for a Christmas present to myself I had bought a ticket to see Dickens. I told people on set. I had told some guy I wanted dates and not to be hit on. As I was coming home I heard someone who sounded kind of like Jason George shouting from a car “Can I take you out to dinner.” Kind of scared me so I turned around back to the theater but then eventually circled home. I was an idiot maybe. I gave Miller a birthday card. One of Ms M’s friend told me it was his birthday. I wish I had written in it that I wish you and your girlfriend the best, but he seemed private and well I don’t know this whole ride on this show was messed up to me. I don’t get the evil in people here. I wanted to fight to act and do a good job. I knew I was not looking great these days. I was fighting so much in my life. I had nothing else to want to live for. Truth is though you don’t need to be a model to be background. And to be an actress, well sorry to say this but not all actors are that great looking. I am also sick of people insinuating especially in my script class that I need to accept this is over. You are crazy. to me acting is never over until I am dead and how dare anyone play games to stop me. I mean it took corruption and lies and fraud against me to get me to stop because I was that good on a set.
11/26/07 WPK eli Stone 8 hours
Last day on the show. though I thought I had worked another day in December. If I am right, they put me in the conference room and told me to look at Johnny Lee Miller. I remember I was the only one looking at him. He looks up and yells for everyone else to look at him. Then he shared this really strange moment with Ms J his stalker. He walked over to her and stood in front of her and they smiled at each other. I heard him tell a guest star “we just want her to work less.” On the opposite side of the table from me was the girl who told me she hated the show. As I was leaving I heard Miller say “wrap her earlyshe does not know I like her.” ms D was sitting in holding and said to me “they wrapped MS M already.” I am not insinuating that Miller was talking about M. that is just what i heard in sequence. I had told a crew person who I later found out was a friend of M that I was being bothered and that if i was not going to follow around an actor who had hit on me, and I stupidly showed his picture to her so I would not have to say his name allowed. She recognized him. A few days later I call in for work to casting and Joy the casting agent for Eli Stone tells me that Courtney told me I was not on the list for Eli Stone anymore. I would have been fine with it but it was right before Christmas. My dad had come to town not long before and threatened that if I did not see him i would regret it and Sam Jaeger told Miller he was why I was there?? Ms M knew I was terrified. I even told Melinda that I was not the one following Miller around. I had even given the show a big thanksgiving card I made and plus a crew guy had given me a hat and I asked Melinda if I could keep it.
11/28/07 Eagle Eye? ?