I was molested by Jeremy Gilbreathe. When I met him on the set of Carnivale he was Nick Stahl’s stand in. I did not know his girlfriend. I did not know she was from the east coast and went to McDaniel College. In fact, he never talked about her. He talked about sex and hooking up with women. I remember he said I have a girlfriend but the way he talked he was not in a relationship. I was not interested because he was not my type. Eventually Jeremy got fired from set for cocaine. He showed up high. I did not see this happen but I remember I think an ambulance came to set to take him away. I wrote about this on other blogs. This is an email I sent his now wife. I was being trolled by someone telling me that I wanted GILBREATHE and CONSENTED. I baby sat ALAINA’s cat. I told her I liked tall typically blonde guys. Jeremy knew I had a thing at one point for BLAKE SHIELDS. I like really tall powerful men but who can be kind to animals. I do not like body builder types exactly. But I do not like weakness or shy guys. I kind of learned in College shy men can be deceptive.

Anyways I told her what happened with GIlbreathe. Gilbreathe also bragged about working on the Film PEARL HARBOR but said his scene was cut from it? I never saw it. WAR movies kind of turn me off. According to the Twitter verse I am one of the few people on the planet who does not rush to find out everything possible about Ben Affleck. I met him once and he gave me a hug. I had no idea what to say to him and went off on working on set with Clooney. I knew nothing of his life other than his affair with JLo on Gigli. I had lived with a guy as a personal assistant who knew this man who was a producer for the film. Guy gave me the creeps. He looked at me like I was fresh meat he wanted to eat and I kind of think he thought my boss should “move” on me. GAG GAG GAG. I heard the rumors from the set and it was before I was even on a set. I also knew he did “Good Will Hunting.” I did not know a producer of it was from Maryland. I did not know he was connected to GILBREATHE. Of course I also did not know Blake Shields had studied with Noah Levine at the time either.

It is amazing to me that people think since I am in Los Angeles I must be able to know the lives of all the stars or that I somehow have the ability to look into peoples homes? Someone called me a stalker and if I was stalking I would be watching and reading everything. There is not one single actor whose work I have completely seen. I will admit a man like Affleck would be someone I would be interested in, but he would not be interested in me. I AM NOT CRAZY. He would not go for a messed up girl like me and also he has his own trauma and issues to deal with and Three kids to take care of. I need support and not a man looking to CHANGE me. I want to change for the better but not away from writing, acting, and creating. I want to be focused on working to build an acting career. Instead I have spent ten years abused so much on line that I do nothing. I do not want to create content that is POOR quality and I do not have the resources to make the kind of movies I want. I also do not know how to get those resources. I can not go against my principals. Unlike Gilbreathe I can not be a bad person to make it. The UNION cut me off from everything I built here in Los Angeles. If I can not work UNION I can not make the MONEY I need to survive. THE UNION is where the MONEY is in the INDUSTRY. I will not work on a NON UNION set and risk being hurt or being assaulted or abused. I want the PROTECTION of the UNION and instead they have left me feeling like I can never be on a set again because someone with the union wants me dead.