This is going to be a short email. I have written about this before. I was a MEMBER of AFTRA before SAG. I joined AFTRA even though I was SAG eligible because it was $500 cheaper. I spent a year going to their events. I worked a few AFTRA union jobs. This was in 2010. But then I got invited to an event at the PALLEY and JASON GEORGE from ELI STONE and GREY’s ANATOMY. I went and I tried to walk up to George at the reception. Next thing I know CONSUELA FLOREs who had been on the WOMEN’s COMMITTEE with me and at several events with AFTRA I attended, grabs my arm and says “FUCK YOU” in my face. I say to her “I just want to know why Grey’s Took away why I beat CANCER.” I leave. I go across the street and I meet TIM RUSS who was playing at the AQUA. Tim actually bought me a cranberry juice and we talked but I never once mentioned that I had been at the PALLEY. I think I did not want to involve him in this MESS. (I have a lot of emails from AFTRA I have never shown to anyone because I have all the email addresses for a BUNCH of AFTRA people.)

These are emails with OLGA PREZ who worked for AFTRA who sent me a notice about a ACTORS FUND EVENT. ACTORS FUND in 2010 also told me to go to CHURCH to get employed. They acted like my future was in an office in a suit. I wanted to find a way to work production so I could be open to possibly getting small roles to build an acting career. I did not want to be stuck in a 40 hour a week job that prevented me growing in the directions I wanted.

I am sick of getting job postings and someone is harassing me. I WANT TO WORK HARD. BUT GUESS WHAT. If the work I do does not get me the career and dreams I really want I will hate the work. I will hate my employers. I WILL NOT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND OR DATE YOU. I AM SICK OF PEOPLE TRYING TO SAY THAT BECAUSE I AM A TRAINED ACTOR I MAKE UP PEOPLE AND EVENTS AND HAVE DELUSIONS. I am going to want to commit suicide because you will not let me be happy. You stopped me growing. I do not want to go on a fancy vacation or buy expensive clothes. I do not want to own a huge house. It is not things that make me happy. I have a bunch of movie ideas I wanted to make and a script I wanted to finish. I have characters I WANTED TO PLAY.

I actually tried to tell my parents I HAD A PLAN. It is so messed up that people want everyone in a cubicle or they are not working. I watch a TV show about two people who live in a bed and breakfast haunted by ghosts and the woman is a freelance writer. I COULD DO THAT JOB. I do not want to be a door mat. I CAN NOT BE A CELEBRITY RIGHT? SO I CAN NEVER BE HIRED AS AN ACTOR? We have royalty now? I wanted kids but it is a good thing I did not have any because they would not be allowed express themselves or be important. THEY WOULD JUST BE TOOLS FOR THE HOLLYWOOD ELITE. I am a MEMBER OF SAG AFTRA but I am not allowed to privileges of SAG AFTRA because I was not born into a HOLLYWOOD FAMILY. I want to be DEAD because of what AFTRA AND SAG DID TO ME. \