I would rather be dead than be forced to live with my GOP parents. I needed surgery and after 18 years I had finally gotten to a point i had met my deductible and couls have it. I am being messed with and abused and I am not going to be apologetic. I am tired of being targetted by certain people and I believe 100% that MICAH REED asked me to read expecting and wanting me to be bad. She was tripping her self up. Acting like she didnot know a lab top could use an external web camera or that they existed. Plus i find that she worked on a project with TV one a compnay based out of my home state of MARYLAND. I was never racist and I VOTED always as a DEMOCRAT in MARYLAND. I just had an aversion to anyone who tried to shove religion onto people regardless of color. I think she took her own frustrations out onto me.

I now have the 240 reviews.

I have made a spread sheet of every session. To protect my clients I have removed their names. I wanted to remember who gave me money and reviews and who picked me multiple times so If I had the opportuntiy to act and needed a reader I had possibilities and knew who fit with me.

My friend Barry Caldwell said I did not have to file. I made over $1000 I am filing tazes and my parents are so messed up I do not think they want me working so they can use me as a dependent and also feel like they are more important than I am. My father keeps acting like he can not understand me and I need to talk to my mother. My mother never went to college and I hate everything she represents. THE BEATEN up woman who acts like my father is her savior and I should have a man to treat me the exact same way. My father who calls me stupid and dumb and actors TOOLS. I was not trying to get out of paying bills. I WAS HAPPY workng on sets but my father when I told him I had cancer tells me that I am PLAYING. THAT ACTING IS NOT WORk. He will say he never said i have to give up acting. BUT IF I AM NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE ACTING AS PART OF MY CAREER and no one does acting for fun and I wanted to grow to be so good I got paid for it. NOT STUCK IN COMMUNITY THEATER SOME wherE DOING THE SAME PLAY OVER AND OVER FOR WEEKS AND ONLY BEING ABLE TO DO SMALL PARTS BECAUSE OF MY AUTOIMMUE DISEASE. You can not make mistakes in front of a live audience. WITH MY ILLNESS I am not perfect every take. My father said he would be ok on an island.I wold start talking to myself and have to create a world in my head to stay sane or I would end up depressed and SUICIDAL. I would hate living in a small town. I am PHI BETA KAPPA so I wanted to strive to be the BEST at what I love.

This SPREAD SHEET shows each session I did and whether the person gave me a review or not or paid me or not and HOW MUCH they paid me. AND I asked for REVIEWS almost always and NEVER asked for PAY. Well maybe 2 times because the person booked me for an hour or more. It does not fit on the page. But I made over 1000 in tips but probably more like $900 after all the paypal and venmo fees. I was paying my medical bills and was finally getting my life organized a little better. I do not want to a job where I am trapped with people who willnot let me pursue acting. I WANT AN ACTOR BOYFRIEND I AM NOT INTERESTING IN BEING STUCK with a man who does not get acting or LOVE IT. YOu want me to SERVE the people for the betterment of the PLANET. How is making me feel like I am a failure at the only thing I LOVE Doing helping the planet. YOu want me to spent the rest of my LIFE PRETENDING TO FIT IN AND PRETENDING TO BE HAPPY. MEN WHO ACT LIKE I WOULD BE INTERESTED JUST BECAUSE I AM NIcE. YOU ARE MORONS. I WANT ACTING MORE THAN I WANT YOu. This is incomplete as I have not added in the fees for like the last ten sessions though I did add in the tip amounts.

I SENT A COPY OF THiS With the names to WEAUDITION to show them how much I had worked and with who. BUT ONE BLACK GILR who I STILL BELIEVE TARGETTED ME BECAUSE I was a white and not christian and probably expected me to look exactly like my picture when I have been VERY SICK and need my breast implants out. It has been too long. FEDS I AM NOT FAKING MY ILLNESS OR ANYTHING. I NEVER WANTED MY PARENTS MONEY. I WANT TO WORK BUT WITH ACTORS AND AS AN ACTOR OR I FEEL UGLY. YOU MADE ME UGLY TAKING AWAY MY CONFIDENCE AND SEFL WORTH.

NO MAN WILL EVER MAKE ME FEEL ATRACTIVE AND I DO NOT CARE ABOUT BEING ATTRACTIVE IF I CAN NOT BE AN ACTOR. I WILL ALWAYS WANT AN ACTING CAREER MORE THAN I WANT A REGULAR JOB OR EVEN A JOB WITH A FANCY TITLE. MENTAL HEALTH IS BULL SHIT IN AMERICA IF YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND YOU CAN NOT FORcE PEOPLE TO GIVE UP PASSION.

I did not hate my parents I just wanted them out of my life. STOPPING ME BEING ON SETS and I HATE THEM. THEY HAVE A HOUSE WITH A POOL AND I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF IF I CAN NOT AFFORD TO PAY MY RENT THEN LIVE With them. I tooks test in elementary school about what kind of JOB I should have. THE TESTS said I SHOULD BE AN ARTISTS. that would be the best choice for me. MY PARENTS NEVER WOULD ACCEPT THAT. I have got morons LIKE LEE RYDER telling me I am blacklisted from the industry and I can not be an an actor and i am a has been actor. TELLING ME I NEED PSYCH CARE because they were raised in CALI at a time when ACTORS HAD TO BE MODELS. But I was raised in MARYLAND AND GOT A THEATER DEGREE AND TRAINED TO BE ANACTOR LEE. Lee also says it is a good thing I did not have kids. Because CALI PRACTICES ugenics. DISCUSTING. My kids LEE would have been SPECIAL and POTENTIALLY GIFTED. I am not sure I would have gotten straight As in CALI because I have been convinced that to receive good grades hereYOU HAVE TO BE HOT AND SEXY or your parents have to have $ to buy your grades. MY parents did not buy my As in public school.

I DO NOT WANT MINDLESS WORK AT HOME BECAUSE AMERICA SEES DISABLE PEOPLE AS PATHETIC. FUCK DISNEY. YOu hire me to be in front of the CAMERA ACTING OR I WILL NEVER EVER WORK FOR YOU ASSWHOLES. To the blond women who looked a bit like MARQUESSA MORELAND at FOX the last time I was there, right after DISNEY took it over who kept saying “she is not special” while lookng right at me. YOU IDIOT would decide how special someone is based on how they look. I WAS FULL OF LOVE. YOu have killed the love inside of me. It is not there anymore. It was starting to some back. i cared about my clients on weaudition. I will MESS THEM. FUCK YOU FEDS for letting SHONDA RHIMES ABUSE ME. My threat ot my parents is me refusing to do something to make TONS OF MONEY so I can give them things when they have everything they need and I HAVE NOT HAD DENTAL CARE SINCE 2010 or a gyno visit since 2014. I was finally going to take some of the pressure off my body. I WANT TO EXERCISE AND WORK OUT AND BE HEALTH AND BEAUTIFUL, BUT IN AMERICA THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO ARE ALLOWED TO BE HEALTHY AND VIBRANT ARE THE RICH AND THE FAMOUS. FUCK AMERICA IF YOU THINK I AM GOING TO GET A JOB AND LIVE MY LIFE. I DO NOT HAVE A LIFE I WANT TO LIVE FOR.

MY director on IT CASTING once commented to me that she was doing what she was doing for the kids. I was doing what I was doing for me, because If I was not happy there was no way I would want to have kids and I do not want to take care of other peoples children.

I want my vaginal bleeding again so I can have kids and 15 years of my life back MS RHIMES. And I am not your fucking secretary so stop using my VOICE MAIL NUMBER AND FUCKING WITH ME.

LEE RYDER THINKS ONLY HOT PEOPLE ARE ACTORS. I AM AN AcTOR and I think the world wants me to die and disappear and stop talking about me. It doesnot matter. I STILL WANT ACTING. WILL THE GUN LOVING NRA PEOPLE STOP PRETENDING TO BE NICE TO ME ON SOCIAL MEDIA. I DO NOT LIKE THE NRA AND I DO NOT LIKE YOU. I DO NOT wanT YOUR IDEA OF MENTAL HEALTH CARE.