I do not care about making money If I can not do what I love and I have not felt good about making money since I was on sets working. For the last few months I was happy. I actually thought I can finally save myself and get the surgery I need. I was even going to possibly ditch my medical insurance after the surgery. now I think I should cancel it to make my parents realize I never wanted their money or them. I am so tired of people policing the lives of others. JUDGE JUDGE JUDGE. that is all some people want to do.

I AM RUDE according to a stalker on YOUTUBE. She has been abrasive and obsessed with me for months. EVERY COMMENT seems to be a hit to my mental well being. I think this girl set me up. Another girl from CHICAGO who read with me wanted me to record a video of me saying BYE BYE. I need to be made to be wrong and pathetic and unliked and unwelcome around cool people. I need to be with people who want to drag me down. I DO NOT HAVE FAMILY I CARE ABOUT. I do not want the family I was born into in my life. They do not want me happy and full of fun and joy. they wanted to cruch my success. I had a cousin who did plays in high school. ANother cousin who got pregant at 16 and the guy who got her pregnant was a playright. Yet that side of my family is so WASP sourthern I do not want to be around them. Plus they hated me for the attention my grandfather gave me. My parents would brag to them about my grades and talk about me to them all the time. I did not know this. Because if I was in the room it was the opposite. What I got from them was criticism.

I do not think people see the complexity of the human condition. I never attacked anyone. I never got violent and I HATE VIOLENCE. I swant to read with actors. IF anyone still wants to read with me please contact me and may be we can find a way. I am grateful to your reviews. I AM NOT LYING and I WILL NEVER TAKE A JOB where I have to LIE. ACTING TO ME IS NEVER LYING.

Yesterday you could still find me. I am not aloud to be a reader because I am mentally ill. But I will never be mentally healthy if i can not be an actor because I DO NOT WANT TO BE MENTALLY NORMAL like my parents. LIKE MY COLD UNFEELING SELFISH THEY DO NOT CARE ABOUT ME AND KILLED MY DOG without telling me.