ERIC DANE called me weird without ever talking to me. A troll on line tried to convince everyone I was weird. THAT ALL MY RELATIONSHIPS WERE IN MY IMAGINATION. But you know NO. I have had crushes but they were not the center of my world. I CAN HONESTLY SAY I had sex with three men in CALIFORNIA but NONE OF THE RELATIONSHIPS were the kind I wanted to LAST. There were ships in the night. What does that SAY. I am NORMAL. BUT I AM ALSO AN ACTOR. I AM SO SICK OF YEARS OF SLANDER when the truth is it has all been me wanting SUCCESS in my chosen career despite not being hot and sexy. I shoud not have to make my past public. Yes I graduated COLLEGE a virgin. Yes I had a boyfriend in Grad school and dated a few other guys. IN college I had spent two years there single and focused on trying to well figure out what I was doing. I REALLY HATED LAW SCHOOL. But then my last year I met the brother of a law school friend. FRANK.

I was with FRank from rougly 1998 to 2002. He came into my life when I was converting to CATHOLOCISM with his brother. These photographs are in various places we went. BALTIMORE AQUARIUM. My apartment in SILVER SPRING MARYLAND. Sandiego California. Assateague Island Virginia. Catholic Law school with his two brothers and his father. Frank was SOUTH KOREAN. Ths photo of FRANK and I with all the green CHRISTMAS decorations. Well that was in AMELIA ADAMS house in LUTHERVILLE, MARYLAND. AMELIA thinks I wanted to be her? I wanted to be me. I wanted to be my best self. Frank did not help. The photo at the bottom with FRANK and a man and a woman on a pier. That is FRANK’s cousins who live in CHINO HILLS, Californa. I needed to get away from him. I needed a healthier lifestyle and well I wanted acting more than I wanted him.

This is my exboyfriend MIKE BARBIER from my time at AMERICAN UNIVERSITY. He actually was a Graduate STUDENT in BALTIMORE.

These are photos of me and LISA JOY who is a social worker in MARYLAND. She was my apartment mate my last year of college, a year younger than me. We were never in classes together though. but she knew I spent a lot of time at the THEATER. I WANT TO ALLOWED TO MAKE RELATIONSHIPS with people into what I am into acting. NOT THIS CRAP I ONLY HAVE WHAT IMAGINATRY FRIENDS LISA? I LOVED ACTING. THERE IS NO JOB I WANT BACK IN MARYLAND. IF YOU ARE TELLING PEOPLE I WAS CRAZY. YOU ALSO MET FRANK. You once told me he was not there for me ENOUGH. I am not an immature girl. I do not want to be a psychiatrist. I DO NOT WANT A CAREER IN COUSELING. I got a theater DEGREE. MASTERS IN PERFORMING ARTS. I have a certificate FROM AMERICAN ACADEMY OF DRAMTIC ARTS.

I want to be healthy. That does not mean I date a man who drags me to a fast food place to eat. OR I DATE SOMEONE who wants me to be a MESS but I also do not need the stress of men who wnat me to be perfect.I do want to prove I AM NOT FUCKING WEIRD. I LOVE ACTING. I loved being told by actors on we audition that I WAS GOOD. THAT MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME.

These are also pictures of Jon Armstrong and me with his ex girlfriend. I was never after JON as a boyfriend. We were JUST FRIENDS. But someone wants everyone to think I am IMMATURE IE WEIRD.

I DO NOT HAVE FRIENDS BACK IN MARYLAND IF YOU THINK A GIRL WHO WAS A MARYLAND DISTINGUISHED SCHOLAR IS DELUSIONAL. TRYING TO TELL ME I CAN NOT BE AN ACTOR OR WORK with actors. MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM NOT ALLOWED TO THINK FOR MYSELF OR DREAM. I WAS MENTALLY HEALTHY. I WILL NEVER BE IN LOVE BECAUSE I LOVED MYSELF WHEN I WAS ON SETS. I WAS BEAUTIFUL. I HAD TOXIC PEOPLE WHO WANTED ME TO BE UNHEALTHY AND A MESS. I DO NOT WANT TO BE A FAILURE. IF I AM NOT AN ACTOR I AM A FAILURE. I LOVE DOING ACTING. I AM GOOD AT IT.

I do not want to meet a guy in HOLLYWOOD AND MARRY HIM. I just want to do acting. I LOVE ACTING. I was happy running lines with actors on WE AUDITION.