05/12/08 My Sisters Keeper 8 hours

06/02/08 Snowflake 10.5 hours night shoot

06/03/08 Snowflake 9.2 hours

06/04/08 Snowflake 9 hours

06/23/08 Dave Hemingson Pilot 8 hours

06/25/08 Angels & Demons fitting

07/09/08 Set work 8 Hours

07/10/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/11/08 Angels & Demons 11.8 hours

07/14/08 Angels & Demons 13.0 hours

07/15/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/16/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/17/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/18/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/21/08 Angels & Demons 11.0 hours

07/22/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/23/08 Angels & Demons 13.5 hours

07/24/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

07/25/08 Angels & Demons 12 hours

07/28/08 Angels & Demons 12.8 hours

07/31/08 Angels & Demons 11.5 hours

08/04/08 Grey’s Anatomy 11.8 hours UPS

08/07/08 Angels & Demons 9.5 hours

08/08/08 Angels & Demons 8 hours

08/15/08 Private Practice 8.5 hours played a visitor

08/18/08 Grey’s Anatomy 8 hours  This day a crew person from Eli Stone showed up on the set.  Patrick Dempsey made a remark that inferred he did not believe I was a lawyer and after they found out I made a documentary about cancer, Eric dane made a comment that “I thought I was an actor now.”  Needless to say I was on set to work. One of the stand-ins kept trying to get me into trouble over a guy I almost went out with and still worked with on sets.  She dated him, I almost did.  We had a working relationship.  Period.  I was getting stressed though over it.  two people who were SAG regulars had a conversation about two people meeting on scooters in Europe and the AD made some comment about telling Tom Hanks someone was fired.  It was weird and it got stranger.  I also heard both Eric dane and patrick dempsey talk about how they were going to tell security that someone was dangerous. 

08/19/08 I was told I was recalled on this date to the set of Grey’s.  Some man I had never seen before told me Disney had me on a watcher list???  I chose to beat cancer to pursue acting.  Tony Blair, a friend of the stand in Cynthia YOungblood, told me she worked for Homeland Security in an e-mail.  I felt violated.  I felt like I had been charged with a crime without a trial. I am a conscientious person who cares. I loved my job and my reputation.  I either have a future as an actress or I would have chosen to die of the cancer.  Meanwhile a man I threatened with a restraining order for assaulting me was still working on sets, and I dont have a future.  I dont want one without acting and I am trained and I am Good.  I am sane because I know who I am and I know what I love and I will not settle for some rich pretty boy celebrities who had no idea i worked there show after having a mastectomy (though the stand in did).  If they did not know, I am one good actress. 

Jeff Olan spent an hour on the phone with me and told me he had to do the same thing to some other guy on another set.  He at the time did not have a reason.  I was told by a stand in that it was political but she would not tell me who or why.  later he emailed me to tell me there was an incident, and i have heard everything from I tried to go somewhere i was not suppposed to go (I had lost a book and went to props to ask about it, but I asked before I went).  I was also told it was because of a conversation about soul mates meeting in europe on scooters, but that was not my story but two regulars and I just said that I believed in soul mates and I thought I met mine once but he was taken.  Dempsey and Dane commented that it must have been him, but for the life of me I dont know if they thought i was talking about Johnny Ponzio, Blake Shields or someone else.  I was not talking about anyone remotely connected to them or those two, and I thought he was my soul mate, but well if he was he would be with me and not someone else.  The guy i was talking about was someone who i met.  As insane as they were in their actions toward me I would not be surprised to find out that they thought I was talking about Clooney, and though he is my hero and I love his work, I am not his type.  I think he is more my equal though that Dempsey or Dane.  I am a professional.  I am an intellectual and I believe in not kicking someone when they are sick, scared, and abused.  I believe like souls are drawn together, which is why I find myself attracted to people who love the arts and acting and befriend those who believe in making good work with the craft.  If Dempsey or Dane were good people, I would not have spent the last two years wishing I had died of the cancer, and I would be building my site for the art, and working toward beating the world of cancer, instead of getting it again this past fall and being scared I had nothing to want to fight to live for.   

I also heard there was a guy who pulled a knife, but I was not there and had nothing to do with him.  I mean I worked on this set for years.  I never did anything violent or harmful to anyone.  I do know the guy I was told did that went into the crafty sag truck after a crew person said he could and that he gave me a card for his call in service, but I never called them.  I also worked with this guy on Angels And Demons and he also gave me the same card there.  I probably still have it, but I dont know his name.  

Jeff olan also told me months later that he thought I had dated Blake Shields when I had not.  Who is professional and who is not in all of this?

08/28/08 Audience 8 hours

09/02/08 Boston Legal 8 hours (this was weird and this producer shows up who I saw both at the the Barnsdale park and I think on Grey’s.)  In addition, I had a conversation with an officer of SAG who was guest starring and she told me that ABC was concerned about the value of its library??  When they wrapped me I felt as though security was stalking me.  In the mean time I had worked Boston Legal so many times and I heard one of the stars talk about how they thought I was nice and why?  this whole mess is so wrong.  I feel like I now live in 1984.  Just because I have a law degree I should not be forced to use against my will I am being punished?  Thanks America.  I am sorry but I am not a lawyer and I am here to be creative and act. I am responsible even if I can’t be the courtroom attorney. I have never even been in a real courtroom as a lawyer and so I think it is too late to make me be that person now when I have invested my life and time toward doing something that has meaning to me. I am not interested in owning a house.  I am not interested in selling insurance. I am me, not a clone of my parents generation.  The abuse stops with me.  I will be who I am and that is a good hard working person and I will find a way to make that work pay off.  I am a writer and poet and artist and I have worked hard for that.  I have not invested any time in being a real lawyer in a decade. I worked hard to earn a full scholarship to college and achieve a masters and train to move away from the law, and I have no interest to move back to that area at all.  I do not even like talking to regular lawyers.  I prefer talking about art, music, film and social change. 

I found out later that Jason george of Eli Stone had joined the cast and the day I was standing outside talking to this man who told me i could not work, well, the back ground and crew going in made comments about how they protect there own and Jeff wanted me there when he was there.  I have no idea what they were talking about, and as to protecting their own I was a girl who was just working to be an actress.  I am sick of how immature people can be.  I want to work hard and deliver good work and I am good or I would not have worked as much as I have.  Sorry but I know my ability to act was not why this happened.  It was political and it was wrong.  Months later Jeff Olan tried to infer to me that the name Johnny Lee Miller had been passed around alot. 

09/12/08 Audience work 8 hours

09/17/08 Commercial

09/18/08 Audience 8.75

09/19/08 Audience 8 hours

09/25/08 Audience 8 hours

09/28/09 Yes Man 8.7 hours

10/06/08 Audience 8 hours

10/07/08 Monk 9 hours (went to San Diego to work this.)

10/08/08 Monk 11.5 hours (Saw the Orioles play too one night.)

10/09/08 Monk 11.5 hours (Slept in my car to do this job.)

10/10/08 Audience 8.3 hours (Back in LA)

10/12/08 Once fallen- I think a pilot? 8 hours

10/15/08 Audience 10 hours

10/23/08 Audience 8 hours

11/4/08 Audience 4 hours

11/7/08 Audience 8 hours

12/04/08 Jokey Phone paid to tell jokes.  Seriously….

OK I found a note saying I worked on something called EXODUS FALL for 9.7 hours on 12//06/08 or 11?30/08 along with something called BRRAIN STORM. The only exodus falls I can find is one starring DEE WALLACE. Odd.