My life on Sets 2004 first 6 months- pre cancer!
Well so far if you have not figured it out I have been a regular on Las Vegas, Deadwood, West Wing, and guess what, the list gets longer and longer. What makes me mad is that crew would look at this and think of me as trash. Yet I have three degrees and I am a trained actress. By the time this year is done I will be SAG eligible and my face ends up on HBO’s website. And all I did was work. I got a reputation for being a workaholic actually. Yet years later my father and some men in Los Angeles would start abusing me with comments that I was playing, not working, and that I needed to go get a job. I started taking classes in 2005 so I could keep acting professionally in my life and my future. I have no interest in making friends who do not love acting. I have no interest in having people in my life who quit their goals or dreams or who abuse others too. What is worse is I think the biggest abusers in Los Angeles are the ones who claim not to suppress others. I am not a scientologist, nor do I want to be. To do corrupt things because someone says they are scared of a religion is no way to gain respect or followers.
I used my time on sets to start to write and to heal from years of emotional trauma where my father would tell me that somehow by being a lawyer I would be able to be an actress. Well acting on a set is not the same as in the court room and I can’t play the lawyer while feeling like others get to be artists and creative. Even though I do have a personality others want me to be broken so I can’t smile or laugh and only care about money and winning and hurting others to win. I can’t be that person. I just can’t.
01/06/04 Gem Whore “Deadwood” 11.5 hours
01/07/04 Gem Whore “Deadwood” 11 hours
01/19/04 Customer “American Dream” NBC 9.8 hours
01/20/04 Gem Whore “Deadwood” 12.0
01/22/04 Fitting Wedding Guest “Princess Diaries” 2 hours
01/23/04 Gem Whore “Deadwood” 15 hours
01/26/04 Wedding Guest “Princess Diaries” 15.5 hours
01/27/04 Wedding Guest “Princess Diaries” 12.5 hours
01/28/04 Wedding Guest “Princess Diaries” 13.5 hours
01/29/04 Wedding Guest “Princess Diaries” 8 hours
02/02/04 Gem Whore “Deadwood” 8 hours
02/03/04 Gem Whore “Deadwood” 15.3 hours
02/10/04 Adult having a picnic “Judging Amy” Fox 8 hours
02/11/04 Unit Cop “The District” 9 hours
02/12/04 Airport Crowd “the Guardian” 8 hours
02/13/04 Restaurant Patron “8 Simple Rules” 9.8 hours. (I was featured in this, at least I think so, because David Spade was supposed to be hitting on a group of us girls at a table.) I kind of did not own a TV back then. Seriously. And I dont like watching myself too much but I cant stand not acting.
02/17/04 Campaigner “Cold Case” 13 hours
02/18/04 Towns-person “Gilmore Girls” WB 8 hours
02/19/04 Airport/ diner “What I Like About You” WB 8.3 hours
02/20/04 Office “Joan of Arcadia” 9 hours
02/23/04 Russian Pedestrian “Be Cool” 10.5 hours
02/24/04 Party “Scrubs” 10.6 hours
02/25/04 Party “Scrubs” 15.8 hours
02/26/04 Party “Scrubs” 11.2 hours
02/27/04 Press “West Wing” 8.3 hours
03/01/04 Press “West Wing” 9.7 hours
03/02/04 Laugh-er “Very well known Comedy show” 8.5 hours
03/03/04 Detective “Crossing Jordan” 8 hours
03/04/04 reporter “West Wing” 10.2 hours
03/05/04 Squad room Agent “NCIS” 9.4 hours
03/08/04 Pedestrian/Theater “Las Vegas” 13.5 hours
03/09/04 Pet Store worker “Arrest & Development” I remember I bought a $10 shirt for this gig and they loved it. 8 hours
03/11/04 “Well Dressed Funeral Attendee” “The Guardian” 8 hours
03/12/04 Press “West Wing” 9 hours
03/15/04 “Be Cool” 11 hours (UPS Pay) All of the days listed here are non-union, but “Be Cool” did give me a SAG voucher for one day.
03/16/04 “Be Cool” 11 hours
03/17/04 “Be Cool” 10.5 hours
03/18/04 “Be Cool” 11.5 hours
03/20/04 Basketball Fan “Coach Carter” 14.8 hours
03/21/04 Basketball Fan “Coach Carter” 13.7 hours
03/23/04 Casino Patron “Las Vegas” 13.0 hours
03/25/04 Basketball Fan “Coach Carter 14.3 hours (UPS Pay) I got so mad on this set because some people took off and went to the beach. I stayed but worried the entire time they were going to get caught and kept calling them to tell them to come back. I dont remember their names so I cant tell on them now and did not back then but still I ended up being labelled unprofessional. My tush. One night in the middle of the night this creepy man I met at a church function called me and asked me to a movie. Who asks someone on a date when they are working at 3 in the morning. He scared the hell out of me. I stopped going to church after that. And who says church going men are nice? And he did not know I was working and kept telling me how he knew the director and could hook me up. Looking back I should have had him introduce me to the director and hit on him in front of my stalker so he would get the point. Dont act like I am a slut who would climb into bed with you because you know a director and then volunteer at a church. Creep.
03/26/04 Basketball Fan “Coach Carter” 13.8 hours
03/27/04 Basketball Fan “Coach Carter” 15 hours
03/29/04 ??? “David E Kelly Project” 8 hours (Pay was Sessions- this was a pilot I think. I did one for him where I was at a Jewish Wedding and another that was more reality TV like. I dont think I can give the name given on the pay stub or should.)
03/30/04 Wedding Guest at Engagement at Walkins character’s daughters engagement party. “Wedding Crashers.” 9.4 hours Sessions pay
04/01/04 Hospital Traveler “Judging Amy” 13 hours. OK this one made me mad. Central put the wrong directions on their message box that if anyone followed would have taken them up into the valley and not to Air Burbank where it was really located. they also told me I was just supposed to be a patient and instead I show up to be told I needed wardrobe I did not have. Luckily for me I had stuff in my car from the shoot I did the day before in a suitcase that I had not removed. Talk about a really bad April Fools joke. Like seriously I had a very long talk with them about how I think someone tampered with their instruction tape because the directions read to take the 101 west to the 405 north and then the 118 east down the 5- one great big circle.
04/04/04 No Business and auto? “MR and Mrs Smith” Fox 9.2 hours. This one was weird. We never got to set. Sat in holding. I saw Brad Pitt playing football outside. Never saw Angelina Jolie though someone kept telling me I could be her stand in, though this really mean girl from Deadwood who was very short and looked like a gypsy told me she was short and petite. I later worked on a set with her and she is my height and my build. Why do people waste times with lying games like that. Seriously. I don’t intentionally mislead people like that. She did not come back to Deadwood second season and I never saw her again after this show.
04/05/04 Goth Party “Kiss Kiss Bang Bang” 12 hours. This was the Hollywood party scene where everyone is asked if Robert Downy Jr’s character is not liked or not. While there I had to deal with one of the Deadwood Girls verbal abuse. This one was determined to be a character on deadwood and well we were as different as day and night. She would tell me her boyfriend hit her one day and then tell me the next they were engaged and frankly I thought she was nuts. She told everyone I would not be back second season because she had David Milch’s ear and that I was going to be fired. She was proud of knowing porn stars and I liked to read Shakespeare. Yep opposites and we probably would have killed each other if left in an elevator alone. No attraction or friendship possible.
04/07/04 Art Teacher “Six Feet Under” 8 hours Sessions pay
04/08/04 “Kicking and Screaming” Fitting 2 hours Not sure what this was??? UPS Pay
04/12/04 Suburban shopper “Mr and Mrs Smith” 11 hours Suburban Shopper (By the way this was a Central job and yet supposedly Brad Pit would never work with Central?) Though maybe it was just Sessions Pay?
04/13/04 Suburban Shopper “Mr and Mrs Smith 11.8 hours. I never got why they kept working us or even bringing us on. Seriously we sat and did nothing. It was the big fight scenes in the store. I think they had us on hold in case but the pyrotechnics were too dangerous. that is what I am guessing. It was one of the few times so far that we did nothing for hours, though sometimes Deadwood could be like that too.
04/15/04 Marriage Counselor “According to Jim” 11.3 hours. One of the days I worked this show they got a renewal and Jim Belushi brought in a special truck for everyone and insisted we in background enjoy.
04/16/04 Marriage Counselor “According to Jim” 8 hours
04/17/04 “Kicking and Screaming” 11 hours “Artists Paymaster Service”
04/19/04 Wedding Guest “Wedding Crashers” 12.3 hours I met Jane Seymour’s step daughter. they had the two of us interact at one point though I think that got cut. UPS pay
04/20/04 Wedding Guest “Wedding Crashers” 10.2 hours
04/21/04 Wedding Guest “Wedding Crashers” 12.7 hours
04/22/04 Wedding Guest “Wedding Crashers” 13.8 hours
04/23/04 Wedding Guest “Wedding Crashers” 14.5 hours
04/27/04 Art teacher “6 feet under” 8 hours. Sessions pay
05/04/04 “Synergy” 12.5 hours. Sessions pay and again I dont remember what this was?
05/05/04 “Synergy” 12.8 hours. Sessions
05/06/04 “George Lopez” 8 hours. They had me play a parent once I remember. Not sure if this was that day.
05/08/04 Store Worker “Big Love” I think that this is an error because the date reads 06/08 on the voucher and I lost some pay stubs this year when doing my taxes and I remember that on my birthday this year I worked Carnivale and could not be on two shows at once. My handwriting and well could not be in two places at once. Or I got the year wrong because I did work Big Love in 2005 or 2006 again.
05/10/04 Store worker “Big Love” This was the pilot and Bill Paxton walked up and introduced himself to me and I think he was shocked because I kind of did but did not know who he was. It was kind of funny. He was not too upset. Seriously he walked up and shook my hand. 11.4 hours. I am sure if Central had this job though I would never have worked it again. I did but after it was picked up. And All I did was be nice and I did not approach him.
05/14/04 Carny Wife “Carnivale” 8.7 hours OK I was moving when I got the call to do this show. They rush called me to set. I remember my car was full of stuff. I smelled like bathroom cleaner and had to drive to Simi Valley. I ended up working on this set for over 35 days.
About a week before working on Lors of Dogtown I did a movie Called “Killer Shrimp.” It was not paid. I played a zombie.
05/17/04 Carny Wife “Carnivale” 14.5 hours
05/18/04 Skateboard 1970s atmosphere and I was supposed to be a sexy girl. Lords Of Dogtown. 14 hours. OK this pay check was kind of weird because it was entertainment partners but I am pretty sure it was not Central Casting?
05/19/04 “Lords of Dogtown” 13.7 hours
05/20/04 Carnivale 8 hours
05/25/04 Carnivale 10 hours
05/26/04 Carnivale 13.8 hours
05/28/04 Carnivale 8 hours
06/07/04 Carnivale 8.5 hours
06/08/04 Carnivale 10.7 hours. this is my birthday. I worked.
06/10/04 Laugh-er “new show not sure if I should say” Fox 9.5 hours
06/11/04 Laugh-er “new show again” 8 hours
06/17/04 “PlayStation 2” Code word for something and I cant remember what. 06/22/04 Carnivale 12.8 hours
06/23/04 Carnivale 11.5 hours
06/24/04 Carnivale 12.8 hours
06/28/04 Fight fans “Million Dollar Baby” 9 hours
06/30/04 Gala Guest Fitting “xxx: State of the Union 2” (they eventually gave me a SAG voucher)