Sometimes all a beaten down person needs is enough understanding.

This is me on a bad day.

But believe this is not me at my best.

Let me heal and get some rest and all you need to give me is patience and acceptance.

I see that in my life a great deal.  We assume someone who looks bad can’t be made better.  We make fun of bad pictures of celebrities without realizing that the person we are and the person we are sitting next to could all change in an instant.  Health.  Wealth.  Age.  The surfaces of who we are can be made to change.  And we ALL have bad days.  We all have days we forget to shave.  We are in a rush and put on mismatched socks.  Perfect people scare me.  It makes me wonder what is really wrong with them under the surface.  There is beauty in imperfections.  beauty and humanity in the scars of life. 

As an actor I want to play people with scars.  I want to play people who have depth.  Noting in life is pain free.  I wish we made things easier on each other.  I wish we practiced what we preached.  Don’t practice LOVE and COMPASSION if you can’t see the hypocrisy in judging on the surface.  There is beauty in me.  There is beauty in you. And I am not perfect. I don’t like to put people down. I don’t like to hurt others.  But when I am scared and terrified words are the ONLY weapon I can use. I sit at home tonight while the Oscars are being presented.

I never go.  I am not in an Oscar winning film yet.  But I look at the photos of the different types of people in attendance and know that the way the UNION has been treating me is loaded with Hypocrisy.  Thank you Arquette.  I worked on set with her years ago.  MEDIUM.  Nice people.  Equality is essential.  What I like about ARQUETTE is she hasn’t tried to make herself perfect.  She is beautiful but she hasn’t tried to make herself white and pearly and fake.  Real actors recognize they are portraying real characters and in order for an audience to want to watch an actor, they must portray characters that are relatable to the rest of humanity. 

i leave you with this video of a quote written by Mary Wollstonecraft.  It is  part of an audition I cancelled because I do not want to degrade myself. I have boundaries.  I also did not think that it was the right thing for me to do.  See my TWITTER attacks as after I cancelled this audition I was abused by my attacker and told to reschedule.  I am not interested in doing a feminist piece where there is lower body nudity.  I am NOT A PERFORMANCE ARTIST.  I am an actor and activist.  I am not interested in being slandered and put in a position where I can’t work with respectable actors with class and training.  Peace. 

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