Amelia Adams is a girl who lived next door to my grandparents on the Eastern Shore at one point. She is apparently the first person to hold me out side of my family as a baby.

The photograph of me as a child holding the flowers is from a beauty contest Amelia won when I was a kid on the Eastern Shore. This is a movie I made about my fights with Cancer and that I lost my grandfather to cancer my last year of high school. Death was a new thing for me at that time. I took it really hard. I made this film for the first STAND UP 2 Cancer Telethon in 2008. I was also in the PSA for SU2C that year.

Well in 2008 something horrible happened. In January of that year I was tripped on a set and I could not walk for over a week. I think almost two. I could not bend my legs at the knee at all. Nothing was broken but my muscles were all swollen. My knee caps had gone straight into the asphalt of a parking lot at a car dealership on the sets of “The GOODS.” I do not know what caused the accident. I felt something hit my knees though right below my knee caps and my legs swung back and up and my knees went crashing down. By August of that year I had been fired from Central Casting, Jeff Olan Casting, and after I posted on Hollywood OS that JEREMY GILBREATHE had sexually assaulted me, they kicked me out from posting for jobs too.

I do not think that accident was an accident. The film ” The Goods” is a misogynist horrible film. The lead actor was from ENTOURAGE. I have been posting on my twitter account about the fact that the only day I worked on that set the crew seemed mean and cold. I knew two women who were involved with people on that set. One dated the lead actor. One dated Jeremy Piven’s photo double. These two women were very attractive and turned heads and so it seems no one cared about their behavior. One of them went around on the set of Ocean 13 and told people her boyfriend wanted a three some but not with me. “I DID NOT WANT A THREESOME EVER.” My twitter account has been suspended and they did not tell me why or specify what was offending to them. I kind of suspect this is personal and not professional on Twitter’s part. I suspect who ever it is they want me to stop talking about being slandered and lied about. They di not want me to tell people Gilbreathe molested me but to go to the police. But the POLICE were used for years to discredit me and harass me.

On August 25, 2008 I go to work at Grey’s ANATOMY and I am told at the gate of PROSPECT studio I am on a list by DISNEY on a MONDAY morning after being home all weekend and not working on the set. They had all weekend to contact me and tell me, we changed our mind we do not want you here. For those of you who do not know, it has recently come out that the set of Grey’s was TOXIC to work. All the background knew it was not a fun place to be, though some background liked it and it was always a long day and a nice pay check.

Back to AMELIA. In 2009 I get an email from here on FACEBOOK. I thought her first emails with me were 2012 and forgot about the contact on Facebook. I was very sick in 2009 with brain fog from an autoimmune disease. I do not know if I friended her. I might have. I now realize that AMELIA and I were strangers. She was known to my family. She knew my parents. From the time I was a kid, until I was an adult in college I saw little of her. After she got married and had two boys she moved into my parents neighborhood. By that time I was living in DC. My parents doted on her boys. They always preferred boys. I think my parents wished I was a boy. I would visit her sometimes and play with her kids. I taught one of her boys how to use a lacrosse stick. One of her sons was in the car with me when I had a headache and started hitting me with a balloon. So I grabbed the balloon a way from him to make him stop. He started crying. I asked him “why did I take the balloon? “Does he understand why I am upset?” “Would he say he was sorry and stop hitting me?” He said sorry and I gave him back the balloon.

Recently Amelia and I have gotten into email fights. SOMEONE was attacking me on line and they were calling me a WASP and saying my parents would be disappointed in me and my grandfather would be to. They said they had pictures of me at GOP events as a kid? I do not remember ever going to a GOP event. My grandfather was a GOP politician. But I had registered as a DEMOCRAT in Maryland at 17. My grandfather was proud of me for it. He told my father to let me do what I want and leave me alone. IN fact I did not know my Grandmother was a Democrat until I could vote. Family secret. My grandmother did not talk politics because my grandfather was a Politician. She told me her vote cancelled his out. She voted for him of course. The thing about my grandmother though is I think she was an OLD SOUTHERN Democrat which is pretty much GOP.

I was being triggered from PTSD over and over by this troll. I did not quit Twitter though Because I was also dealing with LIFE with it. I was getting positive feed back and support. The trolling got pretty bad and people on line started to believe everything this troll was saying. They believed I set up the accounts. I do my own blogs. This is easy. It is basic. I do very little “programming.” There are programs that do most of that for me. It is just a site for me to store and share content and I do not sell things. I kind of market myself though because I want to be a paid writer and actor and creator. I do not do apps or make bots and frankly I do not want to learn. I am intelligent but I know my limits and doing the same routine all the time like programming computers would be to stressful for my constitution.

I do not think Amelia is my troll. But the thing about AMELIA is she goes to the church my parents did and I suddenly found a guy on my facebook page who went to that church and I found out is friends of my father. I had my account set up to only let friends of friends send a friend request. Even then I was supposed to be able to approve access. I have no idea how this old man from Maryland ended up on my facebook page and it made me feel violated. I do not want to talk to my father let alone a friend of his back in MARYLAND from the CHURCH I despised as a teenager. I hated my parents church. The pastor’s son had bullied me. I told my mother in high school America was a secular country and the founding father’s were DIESTS. When I went away to college I never joined a church. Until law school I never belonged to a church in DC. I did become Catholic at Catholic Law School on my own but my parents were not involved in that Process, By that time they had moved to Arizona.

This is AMELIA today. She is as different from me as Melania Trump is to Dr. Jill Biden. She grew up in Accomack County Virginia. Eastern shore is not big. Land wise it is, but there are not a lot of people. It is small town. Chris Moore the producer of “Good Will Hunting” grew up on the Maryland part of the Eastern Shore. Amelia had the same accent as Mr. Moore. I saw a video with him over a year ago and immediately knew where he grew up. Amelia is successful now. She indicated she thought I wanted what she had. She says I am slandering her? She is telling people I want to hurt my parents without telling them I told her they hurt me and I do not want them in my life. I was independent of them and HAPPY. I was planning to work in production and to continue to try to be an actor. I wanted a full plate and not a cage. I TURNED DOWN MEN WHO WERE REAL ESTATE AGENTS ON SETS. I never wanted men like that. I did not like men like that. I am not CRAZY AMELIA or LYING. She is lying. She does not even know me anymore. My parents KNEW I did not care about money and knew I was into the arts and acting. They knew I converted to being CATHOLIC in 1998. They also knew I hated traditional COUNTRY MUSIC. I go to goth bars and 80s music bars if I go to bars at all. I also go to the theater and I write FILM SCRITS and want to MAKE MOVIES AS MY CAREEER. I do not want a man looking for a care giver. THAT IS MY MOTHER. WHY DID THIS GUY GET ON MY FACEBOOK. If he was interested in me. I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH MY FATHER LET ALONE A MAN WHO IS FRIENDS WITH HIM. I wanted a CHILD and that is the only reason for me to HAVE A MAN IN MY LIFE. This guy would not TAKE CARE OF MY NEEDS. I like men who respect my body and my mind and who I am ATTRACED to. I would not be attracted to a WASP man with MONEY who wants me to go go church and LEAVE LOS ANGELES. Amelia met my ex boyfriend Frank Koh. She does not know he lived in POTAMAC Maryland and was KOREAN and that his family were CATHOLIC and I could have married him and NEVER WORKED for the rest of my life. But I quit him because I WANT to be a KNOWN ACTOR. MY IDEA OF HELL Is never being a professional ACTOR again. https://www.longandfoster.com/AmeliaAdams

I rebelled against my parents and their white upper middle class values. I wanted to save the seals and stop people throwing trash in the woods and I called my father a BAMBI Killer. I hated that my parents church was obsessed with money. I just saw the film “I care a Lot” and I am very far from the characters in that film. In fact I was thinking while watching it if I had money I would probably end up a victim of the guardian Marla Grayson. I would want to be helping others and giving my money to charity and she would swoop in and say I was financially irresponsible and take a chunk of it for herself. I was never after the lottery. I do not play the lottery. I was after being happy and wanting to protect that part of me that wanted to be nice and kind and good. But my parents would not pay attention to me as a child. They wanted me to grow up and be an adult and also be quiet and listen to them. They were narcissists but AMELIA only saw them as her friends who liked to play with her kids and spoil them.

Back to the emails from Amelia on Facebook. There are other emails to. She told me my parents were WONDERFUL people and CALLED ME CRAZY. These are the first though. I forgot about them until I recently quit FACEBOOK and down loaded a full copy or my account. Amelia has been saying I threatened my father. She is taking it out of context. My parents are OLD but they are stronger and have more money than I do. They have the power and not me. I just do not want to see them or talk to them. I did not want their money or to be put in a position where I would DEPEND ON THEM. I was trying to work in PRODUCTION. I do not work as a waitress because of medical problems and also that work is LOW PAY and if I had worked as a waitress would I get a job on the sets making 40000 which is what I needed to pay off my student debt? I think that people were going around telling people i was leaching the entire time from my parents and I did not start taking their money until I was blacklisted from sets in 2010. I was working and paying all my bills myself. Up to 2010 the only thing my parents paid was my health insurance and I wish now I had cancelled that. I still need it though. I am very sick and handicapped and it has gotten worse. that is what is SO SICK about this. I am ill. I am going crazy with being isolated and abused. If I were to want to be with a man I would need a man who wanted to support me as a writer and actor and artist. I would not want a man who would give me work as a lawyer. I would grow to hate him. I also would not want to be friends with a guy who was just my BANK. I do not want a man because of HIS MONEY. I want a man who I can relate to and really LIKE. I do not like my Parents. I do not like their church.

Read these emails. I told AMELIA my father was abusive. If the objective of putting me in an institution in 2012 was to make me have a relationship with them it was never going to happen. I wanted better people in my life than my parents. I wanted kinder people. I wanted fun creative people. I desperately wanted real love where I was accepted as myself and not told I am an uneducated assh@ole. My mother says I am not “using” my education. I am not an ACCOUNTANT. I am not a business person in the traditional sense. I am not even a TRADITIONAL LAWYER. I am a reporter and a writer and an actor and a poet. I thrived in the ENTERTAINMENT COMMUNITY. I thrive when I have ACTING in my life. I DO NOT THRIVE in an office or in CORPORATE. I do not know how to do the things my father can do because I am not a MEAN BELIGERENT man who can shoot a gun and kill things without remorse. I told AMELIA if they kept trying to push me to be a lawyer I would RETIRE FROM THE BAR and I DID. I quit. I was better off on sets. My parents were better off because I was paying my rent and my bills on my own.

I am not a CAPITALIST. I am not a SOCIALIST. I am a writer and dreamer. I need my dreams. I am living in a nightmare. I earned SAG AFTRA. And someone wants it taken away from me and it is making me feel like a failure and I am hating this COUNTRY. It feels like the LAW does not exist and corporations and people with money can abuse people who need work.

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