I attended an online event where I was able to listen to Grant Heslov talk about his writing and his work in the industry. Heslov is George Clooney’s writing partner. I decided after to write him a letter. I also decided to be bold enough to write to Clooney. Clooney’s wife is a lawyer who handled sexual violence cases with the UNITED NATIONS. Here I am a woman who was sexual assaulted and yet I am being denied both an acting career and justice for what happened, because I am “homely.” Talk about sexism?

This is important. BOTH THESE LETTERS WERE SENT BACK TO ME, but the letter to George Clooney was returned opened and within the same week I was trolled by someone on twitter telling me that they were a fan of Carrie Finklea/Finn and that I should have made it by my age. I am a decade younger than CLOONEY and the same age as MATT DAMON and CARRIE is 35, the same age that I was when I lost my breast and was SEXAULLY ASSAULTED BY JEREMY GILBREATHE. According to IMDB Clooney’s address is at SONY STUDIOS. Adam SANDLER and CLINT EASTWOOD supposedly also are both located at SONY.

Misogyny to me is people thinking that only attractive people are sensitive or are worth anything, especially WOMEN. I am an actor and I am so tired of the fact that HOLLYWOOD can discriminate on sex appeal. I have so many men hit on my on line none of them were worth my time because I am an intelligent women and not a baby sitter. I am not desperate for LOVE. You can not make me a pathetic ROMANTIC when I have always preferred the stories where the WOMAN is strong and dies tragically without love. I do not care about cleaning up my life to be a loving weak wife or girlfriend. As far as I am concerned there is no DIFFERENCE between my parents and the RAPISTS OF ISIS. I have the right to SAY I AM WORTH SOMETHING and I KNOW WHAT I WANT AND WHAT I LOVE. These psychological games driven by lust or love without depth of connection is very annoying to me. I care about other people. I am empathetic, but to be honest you can not force me to connect. You can not demand I become a nurturing loving person for a man who is not into what I am into. I loved my life on film sets. I do not want to go on dates to the movies, or watch TV with friends. I want to be making film and TV. I want to be acting. Because of my parents I was not able to make good friends. I do not have friends from my childhood because I feel like my friends from that period do not know me anymore. I AM NOT THAT PERSON ANYMORE. I am still the girl who got good grades and would not do anything wrong. The HONOR STUDENT. But I became stronger and more confident in college because of acting.

Crabtree Ireland the LAWYER who now runs SAG AFTRA who put me into an institution because I said I am a lawyer. I am. I was not out for HIS JOB. I think he KNEW AND DID IT OUT OF SOME SICK PERVERTED NARCISISM. For some reason some lawyers do not get that the CONSTITUTION also applies TO US. That mental health also may require someone who went to law school TO QUIT. I played a lawyer on TV and I had the right to do that. Playing a lawyer on TV does not require me to be licensed. I was not practicing law. I spent 5 years WORKING ON FILM AND TV SETS. I am a legitimate member of SAG AFTRA and the LAWYERS FOR SAG AFTRA KNOW THAT. I would want to end my life If I do not have a future as an actor. I am never going to want to clean up my life to be a corporate suit or a government employ. My bad behavior was flashing a security guard and not attacking anyone. I THINK MY REAL BAD BEHAVIOR was SAYING I WANT TO LAW SCHOOL but spending years working as a BACKGROUND ARTIST. Plus I am certain that CRABTREE may know JORDAN MARKS as he teaches at USC. I have no desire to work in politics or the legal system. I do not want to hang out with lawyers or be friends with lawyers. I would rather be in an acting class than at a party. I am sick of this TOXIC abuse. I got a THEATER DEGREE and MASTERS IN PERFORMING ARTS Because I want to be an actor and work in the ARTS. I have no interest in being an economist or in working in environmental law or science. I believe we all should care about the PLANET and do our part. But I am artistically gifted and gifted in the study or history and CULTURE and not science math or computer programming.

I think if someone did read the letter I wrote to CLOONEY that same person also attacked me on TWITTER. The timing of this troll was just too coincidental. Now I suspect the troll was a friend of Carrie FInklea. I did not accuse Carrie of being my troll. I think she knows who is doing it and I think that she knew who I was when we first met in Carrasco’s class, but I did not know her. Her reaction when I walked in the room, she asks me to colorize some footage that she had that I now think was a copyright infringement. But she should have cleared that as the DIRECTOR PRODUCER. I was just helping her at her request. As I did not know her, I had no reason to stalk her. Plus I am really not into stalking yet this troll accused me of stalking her prior to 2015. ARNE STAR SAID THE SAME THING and I worked on ELI STONE FOR MONTHS and frankly, ARNE was not there, neither was GILBREATHE or BLAKE SHIELDS. Here is what I do not understand. I had not been even thinking about Carrie. I was not attacking her per se on social media. In fact, I had blocked her. It is why I suspect that who ever read the letter I wrote to George Clooney is the troll who attacked me. This may be also who came after my twitter. I suspect that I am the victim of a cult of mean girls in Hollywood. I have screen shot all the comments I could find where I mention CARRIE ON TWITTER. I discovered the person who came after my twitter is in the UK and says I can not SUE THEM. SO I decided to contact AMAL CLOONEY TO FIND OUT IF I COULD.

i NOW SUSPECT THAT MY TWITTER ACCOUNT WAS SUSPENDED TO DISTORT THE TRUTH AND HIDE WHAT REALLY HAPPENED THERE. IF CARRIE IS SAYING I SLANDERED HER. I NEVER TOUCHED HER AND TOLD HER AND OTHERS AT SANTA MONICA COLLEGE I DID NOT LIKE OR WANT TO WORK WITH CARRIE. SEE THESE DOCUMENTS BELOW.