I am a legitimate member of SAG AFTRA. I loved my simple life working on sets. I don’t care about being rich or famous, but not being able to fight for a dream and for love is killing me. I love being on sets. I love ACTING ON SETS. On Monday I went to see Kate Walsh with David Boreanaz. I actually was at one point selected to be a regular at BONES. But Eli Stone booked me early and also Central only called me once. During the QA I tell Walsh what happened. I was told Dempsey was fired and so was DANE. I know Gray’s was sued for its treatment of crew. I know how bad it could be. I was there. I also know that they had two fires. I was there for both. I know they worked two episodes at a time. I know Cynthia Youngblood was a stand in. Her ex Johnny Ponzio well he tried to date me when he was also seeing her. I told him off. We still worked together. But a user like that is not my soul mate. I was in pain on Monday. I was cramping. I somehow got some gluten. I know the signs. I am human. That is not a reason to cut me off from being an actor. And not every working actor is a STAR. It is un-American to me to stop someone from fighting for a dream. I don’t have anything to fight for now. I have no HOPE and I built the site Artistic Hope. I stopped writing for it because I need to be able to act. MY FATHER who has only seen one play I did in college because he is a jerk, has no way of knowing if I am good or not. the man was not around much when I was a kid and when he was he yelled and screamed, dragged me to school in the middle of the night if I forgot my homework. Beat me for taking money from my brother, that he probably LOST. Refused to listen to my dreams or goals and all I ever heard was how I was going to be a lawyer. He would point to lawyers who were actors and say I could do that. Well I wish I had realized back then that all the ACTORS turned lawyers ARE MEN. Below are an email to the event I attended. Also proof that suddenly I am not allowed to go into SAG FOUNDATION accounts. If I am not allowed to fight to be an actor. I don’t have a reason to think I will HAVE love. Because when I had cancer it was being on set that KEPT ME GOING. I told KATE WALSH THAT. I did. Why did they take away why I beat cancer?<\/p>\n
I have just added the letter I received from SAG FOUNDATION. Do they realize I all I did was open my mouth and talk about a SLANDER of MY PERSON. I was tripped on a set. Patrick Dempsey did not believe I was a lawyer playing a lawyer on Eli Stone and Eric Dane did not believe I was an actor. no one has the right to make me be a lawyer. I am not going to network with lawyers. I wanted to work on sets for the rest of my life. It does not matter what men wanted to date me or not. I had responsibilities to fulfill but that did not mean I had to spend my life in a law office. How many lawyers don’t practice? Seriously, I was capable of making my own choices. Seriously my sight went down the weekend of 1\/25\/14 and it is now up on 1\/28\/14 because I fixed it myself. I am SMART but I also have INTERESTS and NEED TO NOT BE BORED. I am not going to care about doing a good job when I would rather be acting, making film, someone on ELi Stone even suggested I consult shows about the legal field. I told them I would have to practice to really feel that would be appropriate and I did not want to do that. I was training to do digital media. I FIX MY SITES MYSELF and I design my own stuff so why was I denied the right to network with actors and why is it EVEN LAWYERS are telling me you can spit and hit a lawyer here. IF THAT WERE TRUE I WOULD HAVE ONE BY NOW!!<\/p>\n