{"id":1261,"date":"2014-04-09T04:37:59","date_gmt":"2014-04-09T04:37:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/?p=1261"},"modified":"2014-08-27T02:57:01","modified_gmt":"2014-08-27T02:57:01","slug":"im-tired-of-letters-like-this","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/?p=1261","title":{"rendered":"I&#8217;m tired of letters like this,"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>First my parents love me? They ruined my teeth in 2010 by refusing to pay the extra $70 for cleaning.\u00a0 I liked Cali lifestyle.\u00a0 I don&#8217;t want to go to AZ and go to their church.\u00a0 I&#8217;m tired of getting cards like this.\u00a0 Don&#8217;t give up in the people who love you? They own me.\u00a0 They own me.\u00a0 My father knocked me down with a box of Epson salt in 2002 in front of my ex boy friend.\u00a0 My mother flipped when in law school she found out I dated a Hispanic. They preferred my Christian to my Jewish best friend in High school.\u00a0 If they cared about me they&#8217;d believe in me not my dad changing his voice Imon the phone to show he has the same talent I do so I need to shut up and be put in a corner and find a man to provide for me.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/files\/2014\/04\/wpid-img_20140408_144524.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"IMG_20140408_144524.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-full\" alt=\"image\" src=\"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/files\/2014\/04\/wpid-img_20140408_144524.jpg\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>You see right choices means what they want, but my parents don&#8217;t even realize there is no middle class anymore.\u00a0 50% of law students graduating can&#8217;t find jobs.\u00a0 I loved acting and to them it&#8217;s not a career choice.\u00a0 My father this year told me I don&#8217;t have what it takes to make it.\u00a0 My mother is always like have you got a job yet.\u00a0 But when I have had work I keep getting pushed to use My law degree and I&#8217;m not qualified anymore.\u00a0 I got two Ds my last year. I had a GPA of 3.7 in college in theater and 3.4 with my Masters.\u00a0\u00a0 I&#8217;m smart, so let me make my own choices.\u00a0 I knew what I was doing when on sets.\u00a0 I don&#8217;t want be a legal temp again, if i can find the work. I seriously built my own marketing to be an actor, But my father says I&#8217;m playing.\u00a0 If I had cancer I&#8217;d hurt myself before going to live with my parents.\u00a0 They make me paranoid with their make the right choices. I&#8217;m not grateful for anything they give because they act like I owe them so much I have to live My life the way they want me to,\u00a0 I&#8217;m vegan.\u00a0 Im not going to eat meat.\u00a0 I&#8217;m not going to church.\u00a0 I&#8217;m not going to date NRA supporters or military.\u00a0 I&#8217;m not Protestant and when I went to college refused a scholarship because I no longer wanted to be protestant and told my friends I was agnostic.\u00a0<br \/>\nI&#8217;m throwing out all the letters most I did not read.\u00a0 I kept two, one that says I call money crazed and another that says I call to say I do.careabout money. The later is more true as I was happy making 15,000 a year on sets.\u00a0 Its not about comfort to me or glamour.\u00a0 I loved being on sets.\u00a0 I was called a professional because I loved the work.\u00a0 <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/files\/2014\/04\/wpid-img_20140408_144613.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"IMG_20140408_144613.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-full\" alt=\"image\" src=\"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/files\/2014\/04\/wpid-img_20140408_144613.jpg\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>My parents keep telling in the letters I won&#8217;t talk to them.\u00a0 But the truth is they don&#8217;t want to hear what I have to say.\u00a0 Here is a card I ripped up stating I would call them and talk aboit working sets.\u00a0 Ok I won&#8217;t talk to them? Or I will they just don&#8217;t want to care about what was important to me.\u00a0 I loved my life and I was happy.\u00a0 Today people are consulting, temping, full time jobs are in the past, and I&#8217;m not interested in talking or learning politics or law anymore.\u00a0 I left DC ten years ago because I needed something DC could not provide, happiness, love of self, a life outside a career.\u00a0 I wanted to be on sets.\u00a0 My parents want to squeeze me until I accept I&#8217;m not creative, special, different, and until they break me to obey.\u00a0 I&#8217;m not interested in slavery. I&#8217;m not interested in being a legal temp, working in policy and forgetting was on sets for actors for five years and was happy.\u00a0 I&#8217;ve told my parents I&#8217;m going to feel like a failure for the rest of my life If I can&#8217;t take classes with AFI or be with my Union.\u00a0 I worked hard and Ian legitimate member.\u00a0 Some pretty blonde young girl right now you&#8217;ve never heard of is being &#8220;nice&#8221; to guys on set. She just arrived to LA.&nbsp; She will get her Union eligibility in three days having never even studied acting.&nbsp; Trust me this happens.&nbsp; And the Union is not letting me have the same rights she has? <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/files\/2014\/04\/wpid-img_20140408_162115.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" title=\"IMG_20140408_162115.jpg\" class=\"alignnone size-full\" alt=\"image\" src=\"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/files\/2014\/04\/wpid-img_20140408_162115.jpg\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>First my parents love me? They ruined my teeth in 2010 by refusing to pay the extra $70 for cleaning.\u00a0 I liked Cali lifestyle.\u00a0 I don&#8217;t want to go to AZ and go to&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11,36,10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1261","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-diary","category-discrimination","category-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1261","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1261"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1261\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1262,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1261\/revisions\/1262"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1261"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1261"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1261"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}