{"id":741,"date":"2013-01-21T03:12:48","date_gmt":"2013-01-21T03:12:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/?p=741"},"modified":"2014-08-27T02:02:06","modified_gmt":"2014-08-27T02:02:06","slug":"the-year-is-2003-and-i-shot-my-first-movie-was-cast-as-a-lawyer-by-a-teacher-worked-with-chris-odonell","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/?p=741","title":{"rendered":"The year is 2003 and I shot my first movie, was cast as a lawyer by a teacher, &amp; worked with Chris O&rsquo;Donell"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Before I started working on sets as a background artist, I moved to Los Angeles and lived with the relatives of an ex-boyfriend.&nbsp; I quickly though moved out and got my own place.&nbsp; I did not want to take advantage and I wanted to find people more into what I was into.&nbsp; I auditioned for a film at the \u201cUniversity of Southern California\u201d and I got it.&nbsp; It was one of those silent films that the first year students made.&nbsp; Well this morning I kept thinking about the past and decided to look at my old journals.&nbsp; I don\u2019t keep them like I used to.&nbsp; Anyways I realized that I wrote about my first months here in California, about my acting teachers, my knee, and well my first film&nbsp; project.&nbsp; I also oddly enough wrote back in 2003 that I should move to Los Feliz.&nbsp; Odd.&nbsp; It took me two more years, but Los Feliz has been my home now for seven.&nbsp; I wrote that I wanted to live where I am before I started working on sets, before I met anyone who even lived here.&nbsp; I had joined a gym downtown because I transferred my membership from the east coast and it was the only gym in the area with a pool and the equipment I needed to work on my knees.&nbsp;&nbsp; (I hate swimming by the way.&nbsp; I do.&nbsp; Though the reason I used to hate it was getting water up my nose.&nbsp; I nette pot now, but now I don\u2019t like what the chlorine does to my hair.)&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>It is funny to reading the entries.&nbsp; I was struggling in Ted Burnetti\u2019s class, but actually liking Will Wallace\u2019s class.&nbsp; It was not until after he asked me to leave TVI that things went south.<\/p>\n<p>I should add that I got my first Audition in Cali.&nbsp; I did.&nbsp; And that I was basically playing \u201cOur Lady of Fatima.\u201d&nbsp; I thought it was odd, because a guy I knew back in DC went to Fatima and brought me a little figurine that I still have of the Saint.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>02\/09\/03<\/p>\n<p>This is my story.&nbsp; It is my truth.&nbsp; Today is Sunday and I have tried to get out and I keep puttering about.&nbsp; I owe Will Wallace a great deal.&nbsp; I have courage now.&nbsp; I did not find that in Ted\u2019s Class.<\/p>\n<p>My parents left for the East this past Wednesday.&nbsp; I hope Grandma gets better soon.&nbsp; She had a stroke in December. (The day I went to Reef\u2019s).<\/p>\n<p>I need to work&nbsp; on my character for Ted\u2019s class.&nbsp; Teena the lawyer.&nbsp; She is determined to win.&nbsp; Her goal is to make sure criminals are put away.&nbsp; She is certain of Ms. Amador\u2019s misconduct, and sympathetic to Brian\u2019s situation.&nbsp; She believes Brian\u2019s story of sexual abuse (if that is the correct phraseology). She is determined that the court hear, believe, and support her view of the facts.&nbsp; Ms Amador is guilty.<\/p>\n<p>I need to break up the language like I did the Prime Minister for my audition.<\/p>\n<p>I have been practicing the lines and I think I have it down.&nbsp; I am supposed to meet w\/ Michael Sted today to read lines, but I have not heard from him.&nbsp; He was going to work on a student film this past weekend.&nbsp; I have far to go and much to do before I sleep.<\/p>\n<p>Time to go to the gym\/church\/ and get a new cell phone.&nbsp; It is 3:30.&nbsp; I think I will get a new phone first.&nbsp; I need to also go to the video store and rent Bowfinger SP? for my script writing class.&nbsp; I want to write a review of \u201cConfessions of a Florist\u201d and I would like to get access to the script \u2013 monologues \u2013 the murder\/ retelling of her dancing. <\/p>\n<p>02\/11\/03 Midnight!<\/p>\n<p>02\/10\/01 Monday.&nbsp; I spent today at Kenneth Hann Park in Culver City.&nbsp; It was my first real shoot.&nbsp; I suck at this.&nbsp; I wonder how long I can hold out.&nbsp; I wonder why I want to fight and what exactly I am fighting.&nbsp; The set was atop a huge hill with a fantastic view of L.A. the movie was \u201cTwilight\u201d directed by Susan Woo or Hoo? and Terry Underwood.&nbsp; I do not think they liked me.&nbsp; Sue thanked me, but I felt a level of insensitivity.&nbsp; My knee is bothering me and I wonder how I can continue.&nbsp; I was in so much pain and so worn out.&nbsp; I could not stop when I started down the hill.<\/p>\n<p>I need to find my connection to Mary.&nbsp; On Sunday I attended church at St. Phillip in Pasadena, but it is a little too far for me to drive.&nbsp; I may try St Andrews.&nbsp; There is a dance for single Catholics in Glendale.&nbsp; Who knows?&nbsp; It might be good for me.<\/p>\n<p>Oh Before I forget, Theresa is the name of the girl who plays Lucia.<\/p>\n<p>I talked to Frank today.&nbsp; We had a fight. He keeps talking&nbsp; about sending me something for Valentine\u2019s day, but I think he is full&nbsp; of it.&nbsp; He told me today he sent me nothing.&nbsp; I think I need to send his family something, my grandmother, and the Chicos.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>I wish people understood.&nbsp; I can no longer deny who I am.&nbsp; I am an artist.&nbsp; I need the confidence and I need my sanity.&nbsp; I am neurotic, but I am harmless and very human.&nbsp; God bless everyone.<\/p>\n<p>I was such a bumbling idiot tonight in my script analysis class.&nbsp; I want to much to impress people and to find my niche here.&nbsp; One day at a time.&nbsp; I need to not lose my mind.&nbsp; I need a life.&nbsp; I am feeling sick tonight.&nbsp; I hope it is allergies.<\/p>\n<p>My feet hurt from walking in the briar patch at the movie set this morning.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>I called Sarah Vanek last night- we talked of driving to Arizona, but I think I want to fly.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>Life is way to short, and I need love!<\/p>\n<p>2\/11\/03<\/p>\n<p>Cute guy in the elevator.&nbsp; He has a girlfriend, but it would be good to have friends.&nbsp; I need to bond with more people here.&nbsp; He is having a dinner party to introduce his girlfriend to his friends.<\/p>\n<p>I should move to Los Feliz.&nbsp; We will see.&nbsp; I need a job.&nbsp; I need faith.&nbsp; Time will tell.&nbsp; I should work on my script analysis.<\/p>\n<p>2\/11\/03<\/p>\n<p>(This I did not write in my journal, but I believe this is the night I met Justin the actor from Grey\u2019s Anatomy.&nbsp; I remember it was after a TVI event at the Sport\u2019s Man Lodge in Sherman Oaks.&nbsp; A Girl I was with, Courtney? grabbed him and got all excited.&nbsp; I did not recognize him.&nbsp; He was there for pilot season, probably to get Grey\u2019s.&nbsp; Anyways I was not a huge fan.&nbsp; He did tell us \u201cnot to quit.\u201d&nbsp; He also showed us his tattoo with the names of his girls.&nbsp; He was smoking a cigarette.&nbsp; We had just come out of the seminar.)<\/p>\n<p>TVI Seminar.&nbsp; LISTEN!<\/p>\n<p>Paul Lazarus- Dartmouth Collee, Thater Director<\/p>\n<p>Ellie Kanner- Bloomfield, CN.&nbsp; INdustry Reference Guidebook.&nbsp; WB; Casting; Directiong; \u201cFace to face\u201d; Divition- Lifetime; \u201cChasing Alice\u201d pilot.<\/p>\n<p>Ryan Glasgow- Singer, Producer, Manager.&nbsp; Likes theater<\/p>\n<p>I needto look into my headshots ASAP.<\/p>\n<p>Bring in selves to role and character on the page.<\/p>\n<p>E-mail Lisa about Battlestar Gallactica! (I think we found out that they were doing the new series this night.)<\/p>\n<p>Know your limitations.<\/p>\n<p>Really thank Will for the audition.&nbsp; I owe him big time.<\/p>\n<p>Be open minded always.<\/p>\n<p>ROCK- ROCKREATION!&nbsp;&nbsp; (Not sure what this was- I was a bit into rock climbing though back then.&nbsp; It did not bother my knees.)<\/p>\n<p>02\/12\/03<\/p>\n<p>This has been such a rollercoaster ride.&nbsp; I think I\u2019m in trouble.&nbsp; Oh well.&nbsp; Such is life.&nbsp; I need to work on my focus and relaxing.&nbsp; I have ben so scared.&nbsp; We will see.<\/p>\n<p>TEd talked about memory.&nbsp; Link lines to the character and agenda.&nbsp; Figure out needs &amp; wants.&nbsp; It is what to focus on.&nbsp; FInd out what you need from&nbsp; what is said.<\/p>\n<p>My knee is killing me again.&nbsp; I just demonstrated some knee bends.&nbsp; I hope that is the problem.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>Find someone to read lines with.&nbsp; Call Michael.&nbsp; He was not in class today.<\/p>\n<p>02\/13\/03<\/p>\n<p>Thursday.&nbsp; This day was uneventful.&nbsp; Will called me to talk about my audition.&nbsp; He said I was good.&nbsp; The reality of my life is that I am ugly, but that does not mean I can not find parts here.&nbsp; Time will tell.<\/p>\n<p>I had orientation at TVI with Tanya? Roberts.&nbsp; I need to thank her.&nbsp; I also gave Meredith flowers.&nbsp; I like her.&nbsp; SHe is&nbsp; sweet.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>02\/14\/03<\/p>\n<p>V-Day.&nbsp; Frank sent me flowers and a sweet note.&nbsp; He confuses me.&nbsp; I was going to go to a dance, but I could not find a place to park.<\/p>\n<p>02\/15\/03<\/p>\n<p>I saw Harrpy Potter.&nbsp; Awesome movie.&nbsp; I loved it.<\/p>\n<p>Sunday 02\/16\/03<\/p>\n<p>Today has been uneventful.&nbsp; Kellie Holloski called me.&nbsp; I want to send her flowers.&nbsp; better yet I will call her and get her stuff to pamper herself with.&nbsp; I know- Vitamin E lotion and stuff for stretch marks.&nbsp; I need to go to Fresh Fields tomorrow.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>Life can be good.&nbsp; I just have to keep saying it and maybe I will believe it.&nbsp; I need to kick but on Wednesday.&nbsp; God help me.<\/p>\n<p>02\/17\/03<\/p>\n<p>Filmed \u201cTwilight.\u201d&nbsp; Went to gym.&nbsp; Went to prayer vigil in Santa Monica and went to see Will\u2019s movie \u201cSpanish FLy.\u201d&nbsp; I went to Will\u2019s apartment and jammed until 5 am.&nbsp; After party was at Damn Yankees.&nbsp; (This was a freudian slip of some kind on my part.)<\/p>\n<p>02\/18\/03<\/p>\n<p>I had a makeover today.&nbsp; Carmen at Sephoa in Pasadena.&nbsp; (Do you really want the details of the makeup she used.&nbsp; I am skipping this.&nbsp; Plus I am now vegan and this was years ago.&nbsp; They may not even make the makeup anymore.)<\/p>\n<p>\u201cJohnny Flinton\u201d (Not sure who or what this is.&nbsp; Written in the margin of my diary.)<\/p>\n<p>02\/19\/03<\/p>\n<p>Note to self:&nbsp; I need to write about Monday night.&nbsp; What a fun evening!&nbsp; I went to my shoot.&nbsp; I was there by 7:30 am.&nbsp; I went to the gym and went back home.&nbsp; I decided to go to St Monica for prayer service.&nbsp; After, I went to Will\u2019s movie premiere.&nbsp; \u201cSpanish FLy.\u201d&nbsp; It was so funny&nbsp; After, I followed Will\u2019s Friend George to Will\u2019s Party. (Oh! There was an after party at Yankee Doodle.&nbsp; I need to write down the details.&nbsp; It was fun.<\/p>\n<p>I had Will\u2019s class last night.&nbsp; He makes me nervous usually, But I was so tired.&nbsp; He had me play Helena from Birds of Prey.&nbsp; Talk as though person is deaf in scene \u2013 Ted\u2019s direction.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cLuisa do you want to be a child of God\u201d VOICE OVER FOR FILM:<\/p>\n<p>1) The great war will end with the ground strewn with many bodies but&nbsp; a second war will follow with even more death. <\/p>\n<p>Note: Man will find bigger ways to destroy oneself.<\/p>\n<p>2) A godless nation will sweep through the world and chaos will ensue.<\/p>\n<p>FINAL 3) The white bishop, the father of the church, will fall to the ground in violence, but will not parish.<\/p>\n<p>(I think this was a voice over project I was working on??)<\/p>\n<p>02\/20\/03&nbsp; Uneventful days to my knowledge<\/p>\n<p>02\/21\/03 Unsure what I did this Friday.<\/p>\n<p>02\/22\/03&nbsp; I went to Alex\u2019s new apartment.&nbsp; I told her about Will.&nbsp; I have a feeling it was a big mistake.&nbsp; We practiced my scenes.&nbsp; I also went to Tery Dunlop\u2019s house to film scenes for \u201cTwilight.\u201d&nbsp; We did voice over work.&nbsp; (Don\u2019t draw the wrong conclusion here- I was taking classes with two teachers at the same time and well felt as though I was being dishonest because I was keeping it quiet.)<\/p>\n<p>02\/23\/03&nbsp; I went to church and to Erica Woo\u2019s house.&nbsp; We rehearsed.&nbsp; What a day!<\/p>\n<p>02\/24\/03&nbsp; I had script class.&nbsp; It went well.&nbsp; I need to catch up on work.&nbsp; I talked to Grethchen.&nbsp; She seems nice.<\/p>\n<p>02\/25\/03<\/p>\n<p>Tuesday.&nbsp; Will gave me a scene to play Kathryn- a southerner.&nbsp; She is having a divorce party, ordered by a judge.&nbsp; It was an interesting night and an interesting scene.&nbsp; I did well.<\/p>\n<p>03\/26\/03<\/p>\n<p>Another day with Ted.&nbsp; I froze during my scene.&nbsp; I decided to quit the class temporarily.&nbsp; Will has asked me to join an advanced group.&nbsp; It starts next Thursday.&nbsp; We had a tiff.&nbsp; I was pissed over his antics on Tuesday.&nbsp; \u201cSomeone is scared.\u201d&nbsp; I think we worked it out.&nbsp; (I have an email about this.&nbsp; I told him I was having fear\/ confidence issues, and what does he do, tells everyone that \u201csomeone is scared.\u201d&nbsp; I did not think it was professional or funny.)<\/p>\n<p>03\/27\/03&nbsp; Thursday.&nbsp; I need to check my e-mail for what I did today.<\/p>\n<p>02\/28\/03<\/p>\n<p>Friday- Went out with Paige.&nbsp; She showed me where Blake? Shot his wife.&nbsp; We also went for coffee and sushi.<\/p>\n<p>03\/01\/03 Saturday.&nbsp; Saw Dark Blue in Pasadena.&nbsp; I ran into Rachel from class (Will\u2019s) at Trader Joe\u2019s.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>03\/02\/03<\/p>\n<p>I went to church this morning at \u201cOur Lady of Guadalupe.\u201d&nbsp; Frank and I are fighting.&nbsp; He wants to come to LA and Stay with me.&nbsp; I want to be free of him.&nbsp; I finished reading \u201cthe bookmobile.\u201d&nbsp; I need to go to sleep.&nbsp; I want to start waking up at 5 am.<\/p>\n<p>I need to check into a light source of depression.<\/p>\n<p>03\/03\/03<\/p>\n<p>Monday.&nbsp; I had script class.&nbsp; I finished \u201cthe 11:48 Train\u201d but I want to re-write it.&nbsp; Will called me to convince me to quit TVI class.<\/p>\n<p>03\/04\/03<\/p>\n<p>Tuesday.&nbsp; I went to TVI.&nbsp; They replaced Will with an agent who is supposed to be the producer of his next film.&nbsp; He says they are lying.&nbsp; I would never take a class simply to get a film.<\/p>\n<p>I wish I knew who to trust.&nbsp; I like Meredith.&nbsp; I hated doing this.<\/p>\n<p>03\/05\/03<\/p>\n<p>I left letters at TVI cancelling everything.&nbsp; I fasted for Ash Wednesday.&nbsp; I went to church at St Philip in Pasadena.&nbsp; I pray for peace, hope and love.&nbsp; Paige called me at 9 pm to go to the movies.&nbsp; She had a free pass.&nbsp; We saw the Recruit.&nbsp; It was very good.&nbsp; Amy, Will\u2019s PA called at 10:40.&nbsp; I do not know why?&nbsp; I was worried.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>03\/06\/03<\/p>\n<p>Thursday.&nbsp; Oh boy.&nbsp; What a day.&nbsp; I was not feeling well.&nbsp; my monthly came today- early.&nbsp; I felt so bad.&nbsp; Will took us to see Willard.&nbsp; It kept me awake all night.&nbsp; We had class and did exercises.&nbsp; I left as soon as class was complete.&nbsp; Will gave us a speech in regards to being dedicated to the task.&nbsp; What a day. This upset me.&nbsp; I am hypersensitive to stuff and I need to back away.&nbsp; I need to remember to tell Will about the producer\u2019s assistant Robert and the movie FISH.&nbsp; E-mails to Will.<\/p>\n<p>03\/07\/03<\/p>\n<p>Friday.&nbsp;&nbsp; I do not remember what I did.&nbsp; It was a slow weekend and I needed to get stuff done.&nbsp; I need to get things organized.&nbsp; Oh yeah- I wrote my script analysis and worked my butt off.&nbsp; I got selected to be a judge next month.&nbsp; (Sometimes I would skip a day and catch up.&nbsp; I was also going to be judging scripts in a writing competition at this tome.)<\/p>\n<p>03\/08\/03<\/p>\n<p>Saturday.&nbsp; I talked to Frank.&nbsp; I bailed on my radio audition and worked on my finances.&nbsp; I have found out I can go to Barnes &amp; Nobel to read the trades.&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>03\/09\/03<\/p>\n<p>SUnday.&nbsp; I had so much to think about today.&nbsp; I went to noon service at St Andrews.&nbsp; I wrote Will.&nbsp; Why do I do this.&nbsp; Why do I need to be angry.&nbsp; I need balance in my life.&nbsp; Ishould try to babysit or something.<\/p>\n<p>03\/10\/03<\/p>\n<p>Monday.&nbsp; Ifinished both Bookmobile and 11:48 all I have is TRUE GRIT left.&nbsp; Today in class I was so upset.&nbsp; ANother group stole our ideas.&nbsp; It made me frustrated.&nbsp; I am a creative individual.<\/p>\n<p>03\/11\/03<\/p>\n<p>Tuesday.&nbsp; I applied to so many jobs today.&nbsp; Itahs been such a crazy day.&nbsp; Frank wants me to work for him. <\/p>\n<p>03\/12\/03 Frank wanted me to drop off some documents for his litigation in Carson, CA.&nbsp; It did not happen.&nbsp; I ran late.&nbsp; I went to the LA bar symposium workshop on Image Development and personal branding with Sam Christenson&nbsp; I also am learning so much about me.<\/p>\n<p>Adam called me and gave me work at a firm.&nbsp; (I am going to leave out the address- this was temp work.)<\/p>\n<p>03\/12\/03&nbsp; Image more this or that!&nbsp; Wednesday.&nbsp; Actors have a problem- be yourself.&nbsp; Sam Christenson- worked on MASH.&nbsp; Casting and management.&nbsp; Command of individuality!- accept indiocincricity and quirks.<\/p>\n<p>Use what given as open bridge of communication.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBe the you that I know.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>talk about ourselves- unique.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBetter than you.\u201d- kissenger<\/p>\n<p>TRUST!- self acceptance.<\/p>\n<p>Charisma- public self acceptance.<\/p>\n<p>Use what you have!<\/p>\n<p>Less than should have been- gift not fully used.<\/p>\n<p>Get information on Group \u2013 \u201c12\u201d $600 4 days or 4 week nights?<\/p>\n<p>(Probably some temp job?)<\/p>\n<p>03\/13\/03<\/p>\n<p>The firm is a corporate\/ employee firm.&nbsp; David, Jen, George, Tony &amp; Will are the attorneys.&nbsp; What a day!&nbsp; I am just sitting here and writing.&nbsp; Ana and Yolonda are the staff.<\/p>\n<p>I ran this week for the first time.&nbsp; I did 8 minutes on the eliptical.&nbsp; God is giving me a miracle.<\/p>\n<p>OK!&nbsp; Here is my idea.&nbsp; A man is obsessed with winning.&nbsp; He wants to be the top dog.&nbsp; He comes from a poor town and family.&nbsp; He loves his life.&nbsp; He has faced death and found faith.&nbsp; He loses track of his ethics in the game of life.&nbsp; this could be a dark drama told from the perspective of the antagonist.<\/p>\n<p>Drake Ramerez is an enigma.&nbsp; He commands a room with his powerful fram and wild toothy grin.&nbsp; Our story opens with\u2026<\/p>\n<p>03\/14\/03 Friday.&nbsp; I worked.&nbsp; I had the opportunity to potentially work on a film for a friend of Will- Abby \u2013 Boston student.&nbsp; What a trial t get it.<\/p>\n<p>(I skipped some months.)<\/p>\n<p>06\/01\/03<\/p>\n<p>I have a great deal to catch up on.&nbsp; This has been hard.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>New Poem<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>I am a woman of freedom<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>I seek the self to know<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>I do not need to be told<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>of how my life is to unfold.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>God\u2019s will is to be done<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>in this world or the next<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>but it is no one\u2019s right<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>to chain my will with discontent.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>Your will is your directive.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>But if it is your objective<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>for my will to succeed<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>How dare you walk in his feet.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>How dare you say?<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>I can not act upon this hour<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>I can not rap upon this stage<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>How dare I step into the light<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>and declare this is my independence day.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p align=\"left\"><strong>Well my skeletons are mine to rage.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Another idea:&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>Woman has a car accident<\/p>\n<p>-star with the car accident<\/p>\n<p>-end with the accident again.<\/p>\n<p>Story of wishing things were different.&nbsp; Arc of the character- discovering things are left best as is.&nbsp; God\u2019s way.<\/p>\n<p>Old Man: \u201cGod\u2019s way or faith.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Comedy<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<p>Lost woman in California searching for a guy.<\/p>\n<p><strong>She sat and waited through all the lies<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>She sat and waited for a good buy<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>Oh to escape the sin<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><strong>of sitting waiting for him.<\/strong><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p align=\"left\">05\/18\/03 (not sure why dates out of order)<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">\u201cWe have been silent witnesses of evil deeds.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">We have been drenched by many storms<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Experience has made us suspicious of others<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">and kept us from being truthful and open.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Are we still of any use?\u201d<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Dietrich Bonhoeffer<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Pastor, Pacifist, Nazi Register<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Bonhoeffer- By Martin Doblineier<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Voice- Klaus Maria Brandauer<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">AP- Adele Schmidt\/ Janna Morishima<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Editors: Mathew Kelly\/ Timothy Finkbiner<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">08\/17\/03 (About MY FIRST DAY WORKING ON A SET)<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I don\u2019t know how to start this.&nbsp; This is my morning dailies (?).&nbsp; I just finished watching MONk.&nbsp; What a show?&nbsp; I am losing my mind or am I.&nbsp; I wish I knew the truth, perhaps I never will.&nbsp; Peace to the world.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">This is my first attempt at this.&nbsp; Paige called me at 1:15 am last night.&nbsp; I fell asleep with the TV on and woke up with sermons on TV.&nbsp; Paige thought it was cool.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Anyways, I am worried about my computer.&nbsp; It still has a virus.&nbsp; I woke up at 8 am and went to church.&nbsp; I attended the 9:30 am service.&nbsp; I have been watching TV.&nbsp; Disney &amp; Monk.&nbsp; Monk reminds me of&nbsp; my old landlord Richard W^&amp;*^.&nbsp; This week has been weird.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I called Kathy Ann and she was such a bitch to me.&nbsp; She kept pumping me for information.&nbsp; I do not trust her.&nbsp; She wanted me to tell her who Robert W*&amp;%&amp; is.&nbsp; (I did not write about this but I worked as a personal assistant for this guy who had his own legal company.&nbsp; I thought it was kind of shady.&nbsp; Anyways he kept changing the rules on me.&nbsp; First it was I was not doing enough data stuff so he gave me more hours to do, and then he changed my duties from data work but still wanted the more hours.&nbsp; I felt cheated.&nbsp; I got rent in exchange for working for him but I figured it out.&nbsp; If I had a job doing that many hours I would have rent and then some.&nbsp; He was also OCD to an extreme.&nbsp; Had me shop for him and other things.&nbsp; When we fired each other, he walked into my room when I was naked.&nbsp; He took all my stuff without my permission and moved it into the garage and locked it up.&nbsp; So I had some money saved up, because I worked full time back east for over a year and saved every penny and found a room for rent in Santa Monica and told him I needed my stuff because I was leaving period.&nbsp; Literally the day after he put my stuff in storage I demanded it back or I would call the police because I was leaving.&nbsp; The day he walked in on me naked I started looking for my own place, so my stuff was in storage for maybe two days.)&nbsp; She attacked me on the phone by telling me that I was somehow upsetting her.&nbsp; I told her I am not pretty and she tried to tell me somehow that I was hurting her.&nbsp; I told her I thought she was attractive and talented and I meant it.&nbsp; For some reason, I think she is a back stabbing bitch.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Wednesday, I worked on the Practice as an extra.&nbsp; Kathy Ann made me angry with her negativity.&nbsp; Central Casting apparently thinks I am Lana Tull.&nbsp; At the set, I met JC, Timmie, David &amp; Joy.&nbsp; I wonder if I am a bitch.&nbsp; DO people love me\/ like me.&nbsp; I wish I knew.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I ended up right behind Chris O\u2019Donnell.&nbsp; He is funny.&nbsp; He made up laugh.&nbsp; I am so unprofessional.&nbsp; I am such a ditsy person.&nbsp; I hate myself.&nbsp; I was nervous and I kept writing on a piece of paper.&nbsp; I am writing this because I am nervous.&nbsp; I was playing press.&nbsp; The PA? came over and told us what was happening in the scene and Chris said \u201cThat would not Motivate me.\u201d&nbsp; He was funny.&nbsp; LC got a copy of the Call sheet so I have a souvenir.&nbsp; It was a mistaken one.&nbsp; Anyways, I talked to Niki and Terry today.&nbsp; I miss little Christin.&nbsp; Niki\u2019s kid is Shaleah.&nbsp; I talked to Debbie at Christian Science Monitor?&nbsp; I told her about CBEST.&nbsp; I need to check my mail.&nbsp; The results may be out.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I worked out at the GYM yesterday and got my taxes done.&nbsp; I need to get settled and get a job.&nbsp; I need to be closer to my gym.&nbsp; I am tired of watching TV.&nbsp; I met a nice guy named Gary at the Practice set.&nbsp; I called Cabot from the Practice set.&nbsp; It was really cool.&nbsp; I still can not believe I did it.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I hate the fact that I do not have a Computer to write with.&nbsp; I need to work on my computer.&nbsp; I am insane.&nbsp; I cannot believe this.&nbsp; What a hassle.&nbsp; I still like Will, but I need to get my tickets for the concert next week.&nbsp; What a DAY!<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I dropped my laundry off at the Dry cleaners.&nbsp; I found a place with environmental stuff.&nbsp; I need to get my leather jacket cleaned but it will cost me about $30.00.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">I need to go to Paige\u2019s party tonight for son.&nbsp; It is his birthday.&nbsp; I also need to go to the gym and to the church of Scientology.&nbsp; (Yep this was when I got involved with them- big mistake.)<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">This is a weird Sunday and I am procrastinating.&nbsp; I need to remember to go to the Computer store and check on my computer.<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">Oh boy what a day!&nbsp; I think I am deserving of ridicule because I am breathing.&nbsp; I need love.&nbsp; Perhaps this is my last day to breathe.&nbsp; We will see.&nbsp; I am writing now just to write.&nbsp; I must not re-read this.&nbsp; I must not re-read this.&nbsp; I must not re-read this.&nbsp; Perhaps this will lead to other things\u2026<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p align=\"left\">(And I did not re-read this until today.)<\/p>\n<p>And when I say I called some one from the set- I mean holding, outside, on the lot.&nbsp; calling someone while shooting- NEVER a good idea.<\/p>\n<p>I also forgot that technically I shot a film before I started working background.&nbsp; OK a student film but still\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Before I started working on sets as a background artist, I moved to Los Angeles and lived with the relatives of an ex-boyfriend.&nbsp; I quickly though moved out and got my own place.&nbsp; I&#46;&#46;&#46;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-741","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-acting"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/741","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=741"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/741\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1340,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/741\/revisions\/1340"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=741"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=741"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lauraanntull.com\/acting\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=741"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}