Today has been a horrid day.  Woke up with my nose hurting.  Tried nette pot.  Had breakfast.  Fell back to sleep.  Teeth hurt.  Sinus heache.  Teeth hurt.  But i havn’t been to a dentist in 10 years.  Last time i went my parents had their dentist not clean my teeth because i refused to go home for the hollidays.

My parents are psychotic.  Republican.  Go to church on Sunday, but psychotic none the less.  I’m never going home after that again.  I needed work and a life of my own.  I needed acting because it was something that was mine not theirs.

  Sometimes i wonder what love really looks like. I wish games would stop.  The world could just accept each individual and stop power games and ego games. One persons need to knock someone else down.  I cling to the memory of the last time someone i thought i loved asked if i was ok like it is the last drop of water i will ever drink. War happens on a small scale every day because of jealousy.  I yearn for a better world where we are free.
Men like my old acting teacher needing me to worship him and expecting me to be like him.  Sometimes i understand.  People will hurt you because they are loyal to someone else.  But sometimes i wish they would see communicating truth could set all free.  I wax poetic when i am sick.

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