I am NOT mentally ILL- SERIOUSLY I just am WHO I AM!
I am sorry but this is to my family and to anyone out there IGNORANT and willing to talk to them BEHIND MY Back. FIRST i grew up in Maryland. I was born in Virginia but I moved to north of BALTIMORE at the age of 5. My teachers taught me I could do anything I set my mind to and that i had the right to pursue my own goals and on my own terms. Maryland was a liberal state that taught me the different reasons the Civil War happened, and that science was relative, and that as a woman I could have a career goal of my own.
I went to the First coed school south of the Mason Dixon line. It used to be a Missionary and I refused to take a scholarship from the Methodist church because I felt I would be violating my own beliefs to do so. I hated my parents church for spending money on cushions and an organ and not on helping people in need. I refused to go unless I was singing in the chorus.
I was the first woman in my family to finish college. I had distant cousins who had done so, but in my immediate family the woman were wives, teachers, or worked in a church. My mother did go to nursing school but talked more about her bible then science and when she did talk about medicine I felt ill. I liked to spend my time reading books and writing poetry. I used to try to get into a work out routine but I always seemed weak and ill. I did manage to become rather good at discus in college and also could run for a long time at a steady pace without stopping. But I was never a fast runner. I had to give that up after a car accident in 1997.
I registered as a Democrat in high school because I did not like Reagan and thought Carter was awesome. Clinton turned out OK to me to. The whole sex scandal thing kind of made me realize either party though could be abusive to my sex. I also was never one to like going to church ever or had aspirations to run for office. As a child I helped my grandfather run, but he was my grandfather and actually very proud of me for choosing my own path, even if against his party,
When I lived in DC I found myself working for conservative organizations but I then found work in the ARTS and FILM Marketing that I loved more. I hated law school. But I finish what I start. I spent a year after a law school working as a news media producer, but I felt like anything we did that was too corporate was kind of dirty. I was never cut out to be a lawyer. I’m not cut out for news the way it is run today. I loved acting started at the age of 19, though I had dreams about it before then, and people I knew in college pushed me to act.
I think it is nuts that people have made me anti social by taking away what I loved. I love acting. I love taking about acting. I am not talking about people magazine. I am talking about the actually process of the craft. It is EVIL what the POLICE, who ever is twitter attacking me, and my own family has been doing. I DON”T WANT YOU IN MY LIFE. I will not marry a man you want me to marry. I will not be friends with people you chose me to be friends with.
My greatest accomplishment is my UNION card. It is why I beat cancer. It was my dream and my future. I am not interesting in waking up in five years the wife of a film maker living in a house he bought. I have no desire what so ever of going back to DC and living in a box. I had one dream and one vision. I trained to do digital media to support acting. Do you have any idea what it feels like to be discriminated and hated and you don’t know why? I do.
There are members of SAG AFTRA who have their card and go to events and you don’t know them. they are not celebrities. they are like me. And I have just as much right to network and take classes and train with them as anyone who has worked BACKGROUND and gotten their card that way. READ THE SAG AFTRA WEBSITE and don’t attack me AGAIN if you are going to be AN IDIOT.
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