In all honesty I am always kind of looking at Casting on some level. I have my email searches set up to send me emails about anything science fiction and acting. Seriously, I do. It is interesting what I get. Today I found out that they are making a movie about “The Most Hated Woman in America,” and it makes me wonder at whose perspective and tone with the film be made? Impartial, or biased, and if biased on whose side? I personally hope that is it impartial and favors the Constitution rather than make the lead character appear to be “the most hated woman in America.” She did lose her family members to criminals. I do think it is cool they are making a movie of the African American women who helped with the Moon Landing. http://www.backstage.com/news/4-pieces-must-know-casting-news-57487/

And this is interesting CENTRAL CASTING has been the lead in extras casting since 1931. And i find it ironic that I am being attacked for doing work that has been WORK since the 1930s. Seriously, people have been paid as extras that long and yet I feel as if I committed a crime. IT IS MY LIFE right. by the time I am old enough for retirement my parents will be dead, and I will hate them for not being allowed to live the life I wanted up to that time. And I will also not live to see my retirement because who would want to if all you feel is disgust and no desire to work for anything. I mean I can not stand talking about law and criminals and things my father loves. I really can not. I need to get work in the arts and entertainment. I AM NOT GOING TO WORK OUT OF THOSE PROFESSIONS just because people think I AM NOT ALLOWED BECAUSE I AM NOT RELATED TO ACTORS and have to do what my father wants with my life. SLAVERY IS OVER. http://www.kcet.org/shows/lost-la/how-central-casting-found-racial-types-for-classical-hollywood-films

Something to see in New York. Wow. http://www.newyorker.com/culture/richard-brody/the-political-science-fiction-of-born-in-flames

And I really want to see this Science Fiction Film. http://www.hitfix.com/motion-captured/the-new-trailer-for-this-michael-shannon-science-fiction-film-feels-special-indeed

Acting is sometimes about watching. I love science fiction. I love Doctor Who. I love Sherlock Holmes. To be an actor you need to read. You need to love WORDS. But to work in film and TV you got to like to watch it too. why I do not do comedy? I do not watch comedy. Why would I want to work on projects as an ACTOR I would not want to watch. I think it is nuts for people from BACK EAST or here to make me do comedy or try to push me in that direction. I have friends who are comedians and one of them NURTURES my craft but NEVER makes me feel like I have to be anything but me. And she knows I prefer DRAMA and classical books. It does not make me stuck up anymore than someone who does not read books but likes fashion. Perhaps we are all opinionated and egotistical. Is it not natural to want to go to a film you want to see and not one you do not.

I digress and I am tired. For someone without a job I seem to work allot. trying to keep healthy and stay well and try to find a solution to the fact I have been cut off from the people I knew and being forced to be around people I have hated since I was 18 is not a good situation to be in. I go out when I can with the people I like and respect simply because the only way I will FIND WORK is to be out with people I LIKE. What happened to finding the things you love to do to find friends. I feel as if the objective is to find people who will give you money for what ever you can do, even if you feel miserable doing it. I liked my life better when I was a professional extra and happy and working to learn the biz of film making because I liked editing and photo shop enough that I would have fought for jobs using those skills, as long as I could keep the dream to also have acting “work” and build a solid acting career was still an option. Without that I do not want to even be in the presence of people for long. I just want to be alone.