Who ever Cassandra Taylor is she has been emailing me ever since my twitter account was shut down. She claims to hate TRUMP and not believe in god but calls me evil. I think she just wants to hate me for being an actor, or for being smart. She wants me to know the situation I am in. She says no one will ever hire me to be an actor. She basically wants me to be broken. She also says she wants me to leave my parents alone. I did not want my parents in my life and they know it. I had told them when I moved to California I would not get married to a man who wanted to have a relationship with them. I want to get away from my parents and have my own money and be free. I want people in my life who are nothing like my parents. THE LAST THING I WANT IS A MAN LIKE MY FATHER. My parents would push me to suicide before making me like them. I like art and books with big words. I believe in climate change and I do not want guns in my life or to eat meat. I do not want to work in immigration or border law or work as a government agent. The only way I want to be an agent if is I am playing one on TV. Cassandra Taylor says she wants me to adult. My parents do not adult. THEY HAVE TO HAVE IT THEIR WAY OR I AM NOT ACCEPTABLE. I am not interested in dressing or being made to turn into my mother. I am not into RUG HOOKING> I wanted to be able to buy a condo in Los ANGELES not a house in TEXAS. If I can not be a working actor I AM GOING TO HATE MY LIFE AND HATE THE PEOPLE WHO WANT TO MAKE ME GIVE UP MY DREAMS AND GOALS TO BE A NORMAL PERSON WITH A REGULAR JOB. IF I CAN NOT WORK IN TV OR FILM THAN I DO NOT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH PEOPLE WHO WANT TO WATCH MOVIES AND TV. I ALSO AM NOT INTERESTED IN DOING DOCUMENTARIES. I WANT TO MAKE MOVIES AND HAVE AN AUDIENCE TO SHARE THEM WITH. I NEVER WANT TO ADULT WHEN THAT MEANS I AM BEING MADE INTO AN ANGRY WOMAN WHO HATES LIFE. YOU WANT ME TO ADULT THAN I WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN THE FACE CASSANDRA TAYLOR. I WIL NOT DO THAT. BUT I WILL BE PICTURING THAT IN MY HEAD FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I WILL ALSO NEVER LIKE SHONDA RHIMES OR ANY THING SHE MAKES.

This woman actually responds to me like I know them. THis is kind of messed up. It is OK for my rights to be violated. I feel like this person is really a man or a baby boomer. Someone has been signing me up for GOP news letters. It is mentally abusive to me. Vengeance is not my style. If this is retaliation for sending a mail chimp about my acting career, this is really childish. Cassandra claims I do not know her. I do not get her acting like we are going to be friends. I am a PHI BETA KAPPA mensa ACTRESS. She claims I am a bitch. SHE IS MAKING ME SUICIDALE.

I really went to law school. In fact I recently requested a transcript. Just because I went to law school does not mean I would make a good lawyer. Not everyone who goes to law school practices law. I can’t do it. I will not. I do not want to work in government. I HATE THE GOP and will not work with CONSERVATIVE REPUBLICANS or anyone who thinks that AMERICA IS A CHRISTIAN NATION. I was thrown into an institution because I said I was a lawyer. NOW CASSANDRA TAYLOR wants you to think that I was put into an institution because I was suicidal. No. It was because someone said I was going to get a gun and because I said I was a lawyer. I had a cop get into my face and tell me i am crazy and did not go to law school.

This person sounds like my parents. I wonder who this person is. My parents say they do not know anyone in England. My parents are xenophobic. Growing up my parents rarely had friends over. When they did it was the near by neighbors. They have said things ARNE STAR SAID. I was never told why I was fired from sets. Now this person seems to know I was aggressive. RECENTLY CAROL GRAN WHO KNOWS JEREMY GILBREATHE SAID THE SAME THING TO ME. Carol has not been my employer since 2006. IN 2007 and 2008 I did not work for her. She called me in 2009 but I was unavailable. Also she was on my Facebook in 2011. I have emails proving me that.

Trying to prove that I am not delusional and have the education I say that I have I sent Cassandra Taylor an email for an event at AMERICAN UNIVERISTY I ATTENDED. Kind of tired of being disrespected by people who never wen to college and think I deserve to be silenced for being educated.

I met the founders of Casting about years ago. They are the service for actors to know who is casting what in Hollywood and they were following my lauraanntull twitter. I did not tell people on sets I knew them but I did tell people to sign up for their service. Though I often did not speak about it. All kinds of people worked as background artist. I wanted to protect myself and others. MY PARENTS ARE NOT ONE TO JUDGE IF i HAD A FUTURE AS AN ACTOR OR NOT. I was never the person who was normal who wanted a regular job. I also never wanted to work in government or traditional law. I never wanted to be a law firm lawyer. PEOPLE ASSUMED THAT. I always wanted to be an actor. My working as a background artist was not criminal. I will not go back to being an extra. But I will not give up wanting to be an actor.

There is an episode of Star Trek Next Generation that explains how I feel. It is called “tapestry.” IN it Picard choses to die rather than life a pathetic unimportant life. I would rather be dead than to be forced to be either a pathtic wife to a wealthy man, or a lawyer or para legal. I would rather spend my time pretending and never be in a corporate job. I am living in 1984.

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0708782/?ref_=ext_shr_lnk

Cassandra says she never said she wanted me to shut up about JEREMY and she hopes I get justice. From my view If I never get to be employed as a SAG AFTRA actor and have an acting career I will never have justice. I will always feel betrayed and hurt and abused. I will want to be dead rather than live with the shame of knowing even though I earned SAG AFTRA it is a toxic club for only the elitist wealthy who pretend to be normal like BEN AFFLECK.

Cassandra Taylor at one point said to leave Jeremy’s friends out of this. Really? But if those friends are lying about me to shut me up about what he did and want everyone to believe I would be a problem on sets than I will talk about them and they are involved. However she does say that she never said BEN AFFLECK and JEREMY GILBREATHE ARE FRIENDS. Than who was she talking about and why does it matter to her?

Of course I forwarded the email to her from GILBREATHE’s friend admitting he knew I was not lying.

Cassandra calls me a narcissist. I do not know a CASSANDRA TAYLOR. SHe came after me to have my account shut off as if she is a JUDGE and has the right to terminate my dreams and love for life. She says no one will hire me as an actor. I wanted to die when I had cancer if I did not have acting. the first amendment is everything to me. My right to express myself. My right to be an actor and artist. If I can not be an actor there is no way I am ever going to care about fighting for the constitutional rights of other people. I do not know who this bitch is. But she reminds of of MIA EDEN who is fake to me. Carol Grant. My father. this is my life. I decide who I am and I want an acting career and never want to be married.

I got several copies of the same email from CASSANDRA. Not sure why. but this is the same one but my different responce.

I was attacked for five years and no one stopped it and I finally have had it an express how I really feel about JEREMY GILBREATHE and the PAIN HE HAS CAUSED ME and I get my twitter shut off. it has destroyed me but I will not BREAK and sell my body to church going Christians. I HATE MY PARENTS FOR Wanting to make me a BIBLE WHORE.

ALL MY FRIENDS ARE IN THE INDUSTRY. ALL MY FIRENDS ARE WORKING ACTORS AND WORKING INDUSTRY PEOPLE. I DO NOT WANT FRIENDS WHO LOOOK AT ME LIKE I AM CRAZY WHEN I SAY I WORKED ON SETS. I DO NOT WANT PEOPLE WHO WANT ME TO STOP BEING WALTER MITTIE AND GROW UP AND BE PATHETIC. I am a person who loved acting and I do not want to be a fucking employed slave in a boring job. I am not going to be put in a position where I am going to want to KILL PEOPLE. this is how you make someone go crazy and show up to work and kill people. I will not give up wanting to be an actor because you make me get a job where I feel pathetic I am going to be having nightmares about killing my parents, my boss and the regular people I work for.

I was a nice girl who got good grades in school. I never did drugs. I never cheated on a test. I am an actor, and I was a professional on sets. I think this person is insane. I also though do not under stand why they say I do not know them yet they act like the know me. I am a girl who is now miserable. I will never want to talk to my parents again. I will never have children. I was successful and happy but without acting I do not have a reason to fight or to work. I do not have any thing to fight for. I earned sag aftra. I am going to feel like a loser for the rest of my life. I am never going to want to be a lawyer fighting for the rights of others after how I have been treated by sag aftra.

Someone is trying to stop me being on tictok and making videos. They are trying to stop me building an audience as an actor and an artist and writer. If being a SAG AFTRA actor is now a privilege and not a right I will HATE AMERICA AND THE LEGAL PROFESSION FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. i WAS NOT MENTALLY ILL WHEN i WAS WORKING ON SETS. i WAS TRAINED TO BE AN ACTOR IN COLLEGE AND LAW SCHOOL. i AM NOT DISHONEST AND i WILL NOT DO WORK REQUIRING ME TO BE DISHONEST. To me lawyers lie. This person wants me to adult which to me means I pretend to be someone I am not every day at a job I hate. I am an actor but i do not want to pretend I want to be a teacher and I can not be a lawyer for real. I can’t. I would spend the rest of my life miserable.