Throat bothering me still.  Ate some figs and some Brazil nuts and a plum.  Did yoga.

Ate Apricots and a few Brazil nuts.  Going to Make GF Vegan biscuits.  Eating corn grits for breakfast.  Been trying to avoid corn to see If that helps but I have some and should consume it as opposed to throwing it away.  Made vegan butter.  Going to put Tahini in my grits. My Tahini sauce has miso and lemon juice in it. Cut up a spring onion to add also.  Added 1/4 cup rice milk original from TJ.  Made it a bit soupy but tasty.  I got my corn grits on sale at Whole foods and they are organic.  It just takes 3 tablespoons in 3/4 cup water. 

Though I think the yoga diet frowns on left overs.  I cook just for me so left over mung beans and rice with mushroom miso tempeh.  I’m eating 2x my normal serving in one sitting.  I keep craving this soy chicken ginger dish this Thai place near my house makes but I’m staying off the soy until I find out what is wrong.  It’s like 8 bucks but it’s huge, enough for 3 meals and if I make my own rice probably four. 

Two vegan biscuits I made two dozen. They kind of taste strange But then I forgot I experimented and added a few tablespoons of potatoes flour to the mix. Maybe not a good idea.

Need to go to SMC and get school work. Need practice photo shop and work on scene work. I’m stressed all the time. I realized today that a Union background player makes $145 for 8, minus taxes that is probably $125. That means if I worked 12 days a month all my living expenses would be covered. I feel like people don’t want me to survive this because I’m an actor. Acting is not a job it’s play, but I’ve worked to be one. I’ve been so sick the past few months, or years I should say. We’ve forgotten to care. I’m not hot so my life has little meaning outside the number of dollar signs I can make. We’ve forgotten to allow people to have fun, to laugh, to make real friends. I weigh 106 pounds. I need to weigh more. I’m the same person I was in college just evolved I think. If anything I now wantto hurt life less, see and feel less pain, and find peace more. I wanted so much to let go of things that seemed meaningless. I wanted to work for peace and be able to be expressive and creative.

Had two cups chia water so far and some garlic oil in one cup.
I had a few more biscuits and left but got tied up on a computer. I ended up getting rice cakes but 8 of them did not make it home. I also had some dyia strawberry cream cheese with them. I was bad. Need more veggies. Must go to TJS or local market.

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